Leanne`s

Intimacy that builds upon Him

2010-03-06T09:16:00.002+08:00

Romance - Intimacy that builds upon Him

Last night I had a long camp meeting with the programming head and hosts for the camp - Jorris, Jen and Xueting. Really thank God for Jorris, giving her best in planning all the camp program and coordination. It's really not easy =)

After the long meeting, I felt just so tired, went to meet Kevin who had also finished his singing prac. The moment we met, We sat in the car, I could sense that we were just so tired. We just parked our car somewhere near my house. Shared our days and things happen at work/ ministry. At certain moment, we just went silence. I could sense that that quietness just wanting to be still before God.

I shared that there are many important things to do everyday, if we cant deem what is important for us, people will deem it for us. Many things can draw us away from what is truly important. Eg. our worries, busyness, tiredness, workload, deadlines, people etc. Thus we need to determine what is important - that is setting time to pray and connect with the Maker.

We recalled what one of the speakers had mentioned in the recent church seminar that we had attended. He shared about how God has touched his spirit deep within which even hugs and physical touch cant reach. ---- I remembered when he was sharing this, Kevin and I just felt so true.. indeed only God can touch deep inside our heart and fill that emptiness with eternal love, fill that loneliness with his presence, fill that tiredness with his strength, fill that struggle with his assurance, fill that dryness with his spirit, wisdom, anointing...

At that moment, Kevin just took my hand and we started to pray. He was leading the prayer, he started to adore God's greatness, goodness, faithfulness. Then he prayed the Polydins camp - that people will meet God, encounter God's love and presence. People's heart will be changed, more like Christ. People will flood in to worship Him. And prayer continue... in fact after the whole prayer, we just felt so refreshed! It was more than just 2 of us together, but God is in the midst of this relationship. When we draw nearer to Him, our relationship with each other grow even more intimate. It's more than just hugs or kisses. But it connect our spirit closely with the maker.

When I reached home, I can't help but continue to muse on what God is going to speak to me. I had a gd time spent alone with God as well. As i reflect, i smsed Kev how much I love and appreciate him as we are so filled by God's love. In fact we can choose to draw strength and energy from each other, but we choose to turn to God for strength and love. We choose to appreciate and add on to each other as we received from God.

Romance -- I guess that's when you know that both couples had build their intimacy upon the Maker =)

R.E.F.L.E.C.T.I.O.N.s

2010-03-01T12:03:00.008+08:00

R.E.F.L.E.C.T.I.O.N.s

1 March! Cant believe it that 2 months have gone! I am entering into the last month of 1st Quarter! =)

I want to thank God for many breakthroughs and opportunities given in learning! Thinking back about the past 2 months, without God, nothing can be done.

May it be learning to lead prayer meeting, pre-svc prayer meet, improving in service leading, conduct BGR Serminar, preaching, taking new leadership, going through trainings, putting on new thinking cap to strategise.. all these cant be accomplished without being first Touched, Convicted, Moved by Him.

I'm just so compelled by His Love and Grace. God has never give up on me. Never. He never give up speaking, reminding, encouraging and inspiring me. He never give up in showing his love and assurance. He is just so close to me, even when I am typing now..

Remember times when I just broke down nights before preaching, remember the time when i just shouted in my heart that I wanna stop whatever I'm doing. Times when I felt stucked and lost.. I learn to see that it is not me, but God who empower. I learnt about trusting Him, relying on His strength.

Conviction grows day after day as I commit to spend time with Maker, I know He has great plan for me. What I need to be is a willing vessel to be used by Him, such that his great plan can be accomplished.

These few weeks I had been thinking about Polydins. How God has brought me in to serve in Polydins, growing from freshmen til now serving as full-time. I felt privilege and thankful! I felt so proud and excited about how God is using every one of us in Polydins to make IMpact!

Weeks ago, I passed by CCK ITE and Simei ITE, my heart pumped hard for the campuses! I see more than just ITE students, but Great Kingdom Minded students rising from within. I can imagine all the ITEs graduating and making impact in various sector of the society, eg, beauticians, hairstylist, hospitality, technicians etc. When I think about the Poly Campuses.. looking thru all the courses.. 47 courses in NP, 50 Courses in SP, 34 courses in RP, 47 courses in NYP, 44 Courses in TP, camps in NS. My heart just stirred with great excitement and anticipation of what God is going to do for this year.

SEED2010 is coming, this shall be the greatest event of 2010! I am anticipating on what God is going to do in our hearts!

Coming to 1 year as Full Time church staff!

2009-10-29T22:42:00.006+08:00

Coming to 1 Year as Full Time church staff!

While I was preparing for this saturday sermon... getting a bit distracted.. went to my blog.. oops again.. not updating for ages!

Taking some time to pray for the leaders who are serving along with me in X2. I thank God for every one in the David Mighty Men's team! They are lovely bunch of people who love God and His flocks. Sacrificial, loving, faithful bunch of leaders who dreams BIG for Jesus! Not forgetting the RDMM team! - love them! They are great biblical models they live out their life fully for God! A bunch of crazy people! crazy for Jesus!

Start to reflect... It's coming to 1 year serving in Hope Church as a full time staff! I recalled the time I entered into staff team was 2008 Nov. I came in with simple mind, just serve, develop and grow! I felt privilege to be able to serve God alongside with all the spiritual giants (the pastors & staffs), who give their whole heart to Jesus. Many of them serve beyond their boundaries, giving the best to advance the Kingdom of God.

Although, I seldom go to office as my job requires me to travel around campuses and places to meet people. I always look forward to Mon & Thurs/ Fri to go back to office to have lunch and catch up with the colleagues! They were a bunch of fun loving, creative, energetic & crazy people!

I'm always thankful to have a great boss- Ps Jasmine. She gave me lots of opportunities to develop and improve. Always believing in me and encouraging me to be all that God wants me to be. Haa... we always have a common place for shepherding... (we are boring people when it comes to.. deciding food.. maybe not for her, but for me.) For the past 1 year, perhaps even way before I come into office.. we will always go to katong mall - a mini coffeeshop that only have 1 stall- for shepherding.. we seldom asked where should we go.. the moment we step out of office for catch up, we will end up there. Even the lady boss also know the food we want! What matter most isnt the food, but the time spent together.

I thank God for having such a godly, loving, beautiful and gentle boss. Well... she can be rather crazy in office. But her presence really matter, as she brings joy and energy to us! She is committed to God, committed to give her best to the church.

In these 1 whole year, I was challenged to stretch and serve more. I thank God for his grace, opportunities and strength. Experience mountains & valleys in life, yet I know Mountain mover & Valley lifter is there to keep watch and give me strength to overcome. I pray that God will continue to enlarge my capacity to serve Him. I may not know what will be happening next year or after, I could only thank God for bringing me thus far and looking forward to where his grace brings.. It shall be a supernatural & exciting encounter!

You are Faithful. You are Awesome. Thank you, Heavenly Father.

A Mountain-Moving Week

2009-07-26T02:43:00.003+08:00

A Mountain- Moving Week!

Just finished watching the recording of Saturday POLYDINS svc preaching. I kept laughing at the funny expression & jokes that i shared. First time having breakthrough in sharing jokes that people will laugh!!! I was also greatly moved and touched by God working through me to speak to the congregation. During the watching of the video --- response/ altar call time, I lifted my hands and prayed to God. First time watching at the sermon with that kind of wah!!! IF it's not God then who? I can't deny that Power & Love of God moving in the service & my life.

I thank God for the courage that he gave. Many things not in the script, but was shared cos I'm truly convicted that Repentance is one of the key that usher Revival! God, thank you. Thanks for using me.

Thank God for Jasmine, not giving up on me & always believe in me, giving the best to train & guide me. It's a blessing to have a great mentor.

I love the RDMM team, they had stretched my faith recently, I enjoyed the time we shared about our learning as it spur & inspire me to grow! I love the DMM team, a great team to serve with, having fun time & greater bonding! I start to see greater unity in the team!

Many new challenges ahead but i believe with God, ALL things are POSSIBLE!

Thanks for loving me, dad. YOur Grace is enough.

A mountain-moving week!

MoNopoly CRaze

2009-07-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

MoNopoly CRaze

Yesterday - Monday! Always look forward to Mon! It's never blues... Cos I know Tues is my OFF day! I had a great time catching up with jasmine in office. Bury myself in office to finish evo retreat planning & other admin stuffs. EVO coming! - Look forward to spend time with all the new believers!

Evening time, had a great catch up with Andrew @ Airport.. awaiting to send Mingxiu off. Great catch up w Leslie, shareen, ace, kenneth & Isaac too!

After sending MX off, we had a spontaneous plan... follow up on the EVO planning then.. shareen introduced to us Monopoly cards! Oh so so cool! such a fun game that we couldnt resist, ended up ace missed her last train home. So all of us went to take teh same bus 53. Guess what? Monopoly Craze... We played on the bus! 4 of us- Andrew, shareen, ace & me! it's so addictive! a great game! start to pick up some strategizing skills! I had been winning for 2 rounds!

Good games does connect the people, just enjoy the fun time together!

A Happening WeeK!

2009-07-13T12:56:00.002+08:00

A Happening WeeK!

Ystdy was a great celebrative moment as we have 23 polydins going for water baptism!

It's always great to see our nee bro & sis taking step of faith & obedience to go for water baptism. Some of them has just overcame parental objections, while some finally made decision to go.. some just go for it without hesitation. No matter wat's the reason. They had done it! Congrats!

Looking forward to this week! It's EVO EVO EVO! Our EVo Retreat with the NEw believers & Follow Uppers!

Oh firstly, in jesus name, i prayed that sorethroat, cough & flu will be gone! No more wearing mask to teach!

Celebrating 1 Yr Courtship

2009-07-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

Celebrating 1 Year Courtship

Haha... one funny thing- on 6th July, Mr K called at around 11.55pm. The moment he called, he said " 5 more minutes. " I thought he told me that he will call me again in 5 min time & I answered "ok". He was like "huh?" Miscom... then i realised what he meant was 5 mins to our 1st anniversary! ah. so ambarassing.. hoho...

Down with ulcers, flu, sorethroat.. but thank God it doesnt affect the celebrative mood of our 1st yr courtship. I just miraclously got healed when I see him. Thank God!

Next day, 07072009, Upon entering Equinox at Swissotel the Stamford, Mr K & I were mesmerised by the panoramic views of Singapore. What a view! From the top of the tallest hotel in Southeast Asia, you can see out past the marina to Malaysia and Indonesia and the restaurant's three-tier design and floor-to-ceiling windows mean every table has a view. It's decorated in contemporary style with nice Chinese accents.

I was captivated by the impressive three-storey, amphitheatre-style restaurant that emphasizes simple yet bold design elements. We had a sumptuous high-tea buffet, dwelling in that great ambience.

Drinking '70th storey' tea & tasting the wide range of high-tea consist of the East & West cuisine.. oh... awesome! We really enjoy a varied and multidimensional culinary experience! We cant help but keep taking pics! You can see some ppl taking pic as they dig in the food. Young & old couples everywhere! so exciting!

We had a spontaneous plan there after, just a walk around suntec then we head to cineleisure. Intending to watch "I love you, Man" too bad... we missed the timing. So we took some time to think of places to go... and we ended up going to Timbre!

It's so cooL! Timbre near substation. We just enjoyed the Live Acoustic by Good Fellas. Fantastic! One of the key singers actually performed in our Ydna event before! It's a right choice man, not rock but acoustic style! We love it! Oh we love the buffalo wings! Though it's our first time, we tasted one of the best Buffalo wings we ever had so far! We loved the special Timbre seasoning & the amazing generous portion with reasonable price! We agreed that this place shall be our regular hangout on Tues nites!

15min to midnight, about to reach home. We exchanged our gifts. Surprises! Mr K. give me a special magic cup that will show our pics when hot water is poured into it, pinky roses (haha.. in the car with the road lights, i thought it's yellow roses!) & a card (triangled ribbon that synify our r's with God in the centre) w our recent pics! I love 'em! While for me, I prep a special wooden framed mirror that is decorated with his name & stuffs! It's one & only design. No Duplication. Exclusive edition. =)

When I reached home, I just took some time to read the card & give thanks to the Lord! 5 things written on his card to move forward to in building this r's. Agree.

MPC- preparation for the next phase of lives, Our Spiritual lives & personal developments in ministries & career, Families' salvation, Mission Trip together, improve our 21km Stanchart timing this year! Let's move forward!

Immediately when I reached home. I am down with flu, sorethroat again. I guess it's all the food that cause it.. choc fondue..seafood.. buffalo wings... Prayed for healinG!

I THANK THE LORD FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE IN OUR LIVES. LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAYS AHEAD>>>

Happy Birthday to Joel & Leslie too! Sharing the same day of celebration!

notice about the MAGIC cup? from black to COLOURED picS!

Hapy Birthday to Abigail!

2009-07-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Happy BIrthday to AbigaiL!

A JoyiOus Occasion celebrating our beloved Abi's Bday!

We went to Sakura for buffet dinner.. Wasnt a very nice place to go. But definitely we had a great fellowship together!

Abigail shared about her wishes & also how God has blessed her. I was really touched & encouraged by her desire to want to grow & love God more. She has done a great job in leading the PSPT! I could see the dynamic in the team!

There after, Colin drove us to Pan Pacific lounge for a chill out. WAh... it's really a nice place! with soothing live music..

Here's some pic of the dudes & bday girl!

Happy 2* th! Welcome to 2* club!

Stay beautiful & lovely! Load of Surprises from our Heavenly Father to be discovered!

Recent Updates to Share!

2009-07-06T15:37:00.008+08:00

Recent Updates to share.

MOvies:

1. Transformer --- 1st time watching Transformer! It's so amazing how things transform! After watching the movie, I could visualise how all the cars on the road going to be a potential transformers!! That's scary!

The greatest Transformer is God. Who transform me from the inside out. He is powerful!

2. Ice Age --- Laugh my lungs & liver out! Amazed by the animation... it's so awesome! Oh... I love that little baby elephant.... so cute.........................................................

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I had a great 2 hrs of learning as i get into the Twitter. Get to follow some of the great influencer, resourceful people & interesting friends!

Twitter, a micro blog. Something that keep me concise in sharing & thinking!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ABIGAIL CHUAH! =) 6th July
- a lovely, sweet, loyal friend! Stay beautiful =)

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Coming SooN:

The Mark of our 1 Year in courtship : 7th July 2008 - 7th July 2009

7th July is also JOEL & LESLIE's BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROs! WE SHARED THE SAME DAY OF CELEBRATION! Really glad to serve God with both of you! Love you, bros.

Anticipating for a fruitful time together with Kev tomorrow! Be with us, Heavenly Daddy. =)

Reflecting on the past 1 year together. Filled with thanksgiving heart. A better understanding on relationship. A better understanding of myself. Keep growing, Keep moving! Learning to be more romantic & loving. YEsh yesh!

POLYDINS CAMP 2009 - A Contemporary Generation

2009-03-25T22:36:00.003+08:00

POLYDINS CAMP 2009 - A Contemporary Generation

Thanksgiving time!

I really witness and experience God’s miracle & faithfulness over the polydins’ camp!

Firstly, Give a big big clap to all the Camp committees, musios and PW leaders --- ALL THE UNSUNG HEROES!!

They came in early on Thurs to do the set up of logistics, technical support, admin & housekeeping, games, musios, deco, mamashop, PSA! Hardwork and Teamwork displayed greatly! There’s great anticipation of how God is going to move greatly in this camp!

The camp com has been serving very hard, taking initiatives to involve and giving the best in whatever role that is given. There are many of them who are fist time involving in this camp too! Clap Clap! You are wonderful!

Throughout the camp, they had been very serving and they were the first to reach and prepare, last to leave the campsites too! Really appreciate this great team!!

Look forward to the evaluation for greater improvement and also Celebration for the success in camp! God is moving greatly even after the camp!!

Secondly, Thank God for the pastoral leaders and camp com!
Remember the first day we had to settle the hall accommodation and changing the set up of the stage to another part of the hall. Thank God for all pastoral leaders, coming in to discuss and think of better way to improve this camp together! Communication to the members and mobilisation of helpers were acted promptly! I see people giving their best to ensure that the whole set up done well and our beloved guys had a rest in a better venue! We see how our sisters giving up their rooms to allow the brothers to sleep in a better environment! Loving spirit moved the hearts of many!

Thirdly, Wise decision and discussion made by camp com! Thank God for his faithfulness. To adjust Day 2 program. God is faithful to withhold the rain til the people finished their Mega Games! I received great responses that though the weather was hot, but the Games were super fun and making full use of the campsite environment! A games that can be played close to the nature! We thank God that He protects the people from harm throughout the games and also grant us a cool drizzling with a beautiful rainbow that symbolise his covenant! God is faithful and awesome! That night of praise & worship, teaching and prophesy time was awesome, terrific! I was greatly moved and encouraged by God through his words and promise! His vision and heartbeat for his beloved ones!

Fourthly, Great wonderful workshops & teaching! This is the first time i heard so many good feedbacks about the workshops! People were keen to learn and active to participate in the workshop. Even after the workshop, during meal time, the people had a discussion on the topic they learnt and issues they are considering!

This camp not only stirs the hearts and soul of the people, but also the mind of the people. To really Love God with all our heart, mind, soul and strength!

The cool designed camp t-shirt (i love it!), useful & practical goodies, Inspiring & Mind triggering Learning, Encouraging preaching, unforgettable WARM & SWEATY fellowship with one another, Promise of God by Rainbow, unforgettable sunset scenery in the greenery farmland, the challenging Campaign Double Charge, magnificent praise &worship, awesome dress-up for the PSA! Wooh!!!

Too many wonderful memories & Thanksgiving!!!!

Contemporary Generation – A generation that engage people to Christ!=)

1st day @ work in church office & Thanksgiving

2008-11-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

1st day @ work in church office

wooh! 1st day @ work in church office as Tertiary Pastoral Staff! Actually its a familiar place to me... as i always go to church office to meet jasmine for shepherding, yet there are some levels which I had never been before- 3rd and 4th level of Joo Chiat office.

1st thing in morning was the orientation by Fenny from HR, followed by a briefing of JD by Jasmine, my boss! Haha...! She is nice boss! I dunno why she seems more excited than me. Seems like I am seeing her almost everyday!! haha! Definitely can learn more from her and various pastors and staffs!

Looking through the JD - Job Description. Challenges filled with great excitement and anticipation! There's gonna be lots of things to learn, develop and expand!

Improve in my leadership and discipleship, bible knowledge, communication skills, voice training, managing skills etc etc etc

1 Life to live, Live to the fullest!

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Thanksgiving to God

Recently I had a thought of how I can be relevant to the people around us. How can I grow and connect with different people. May it be students, parents, businessmen, young, old, sick and poor.

God has shown me and guided me through.

Just last month til now, God just create many opportunities for me to interact with people from various walks of life, whom I am able to relate and share Christ with. Got the chance to share with my sick aunt, cousins, a malaysian tenant who stayed in my student's hse, singled parent, businessman and friends who are in different work scope.

Through the interaction, God had also softened their hearts to be more opened to share their lives. I thank God for giving me wisdom to give advices in their lives. Having the chance to share some bibilical principles in work and relationship, life testimony and Gospel! People really matter to God. As I share Christ, I started to pray for them.

I am praying that they will come to know Jesus very soon!

Oh Good News too! my mum has moved back! God is good! Although, her r's w dad isnt improving, but I know that having her move back to the family, there will be chance to patch back! I pray that my parents will come to know God soon. God is love. Until and unless they know that God is love. His love is perfect. God can restore the broken hearts. Their loves for each other will then be rekindled. I know God is doing something in my family. There's going to be spiritual revival!

Witness Revival in November!

Have a Break, Have a Kitkat

2008-10-26T22:46:00.001+08:00

Have a Break, Have a Kitkat

"Have a Break, Have a Kitkat" no... no kitkat... but piles of books!

Have a short break this week, finished my last session of tuition. A short break for me before starting to work in chruch office! Actually isnt really a new job, cos its what I have been doing all these while, i love it! 1 Life to live, Live it fully!

Last sunday, i joined some of the adults for buffet dinner. Had a great time interacting with them. Learnt much from them in how they handle their life and ministry! A great bunch of young men and women who love Jesus!

Life in Campus & 1 Step closer

2008-10-22T14:23:00.007+08:00

Life in NYP Campus!

Life in campus can be vibrant!

Looking Forward to new challenges!

2008-10-18T12:20:00.005+08:00

Looking Forward to new challenges!

w.e.f. from 3rd Nov I'm going to work in church office as full time pastoral!

How's the feeling?

Mix feelings. Having to say bye bye to all my students... it has been 8 years since giving tuition from my student days. I always thank God for providing me.. Indeed Matt 6:33 is true! As we put God first, he will always provide for us. Seek First His Kingdom and His Righteousness, and all these things shall be given unto you.

I thank God for the opportunity to serve in a growing church. Able to grow together with the church. I hope to give the best that I can and also allow God to stretch me further. Oh... I see new challenges ahead! Pray not for circumstances to be removed but a big heart and trust unto Jesus!

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Last night corporate prayer meeting was a great refreshing time for many hearts who are burdened by the economic changes. No matter what is happening around us, God is immutable. He can be trusted.

As Ps Jeff was challenging us about the Christmas harvest, and rallied us to pray for our family and friends. i thought of the lady whom i shared Christ recently. She is one of my students' tenant. A malaysian lady who has been working in sg for many years. We had a great chat after my tuition and as we chat about kids and life, i started to share about how good God is in my life and started to share about how i came to know the Lord. It was a real divine time, i could sense God is opening opportunity... this lady started to open up her life more and even told me she is interested to know about Jesus! She is taking time to consider. Going to catch up with her next week and also invite her for service! Pray that she will receive Jesus very soon!!

People matters to God.

100th day anniversary

2008-10-16T01:30:00.006+08:00

100th Day Celebration of Togetherness

On Tuesday, i met up Mr K after his shepherding and my DLC. We had celebration of our 100th day together. Our theme was " Made with Love". We were supposed to prepare a handmade stuff to present to each other.

Why 100th day? hm... cos we intend not to celebrate monthly. so make it 100days hahha... easier... nah.. why huh? dunno.. thanks to dennis and gwen.. perhaps the idea of 100th day starts from there when our sheps shared w us their 100th day experience and my sheep w dan's experience..ahaha..

We went to Angel's Share @ Dempsey Rd- A great place! We ordered smoked duck pizza. This was pretty cool, the waiter poured a shot of alcohol over the pizza and lit it up. Looks good and tastes awesome! We also ordered the blueberry creme puree.. dunno what's that but taste not bad except the top layer of sugar..

We had a great chat about ministry stuffs.. shared about our learning and had a discussion on a few matters. That's romantic for me.. (yeah my romantic quotient wasn't that high)

We also shared about when was the time we felt romantic... oh.. someone asked me this recently.. I guessed... it was the time when we discussed about certain matters that are closed to our hearts.. eg ministry, families, our learning. Too logical? nah... i thought that's romantic... cos i get to know his views and feelings better... Personally I felt that romance is more than just about feeling and physically get engaged. I felt its when the mind engaged, both had a common views and understandings, rooted on the biblical principles... oh that's loving (well my own way to define) Well of cos not saying both behave like robots.. definitely I enjoyed his expression of love, yet at times, honestly i cant stand hhaha

After the late supper, throughout the journey home.. Mr K looked stressful and anxious... each time he drove past the road bump... he will make a remark- oh no... oh not again... my stuff...

I cant help but kept laughing... wondering what was the stuff that he made... so fragile? couldn't withstand the bumpy road..

When we reach the roadside of my place... we had a time to exchange our 'made w love' stuff.. I made a collage for him.It was a memory lane for us to remember how God brought us together.. I'm thankful to God.

When it was his turn... i closed my eyes... heard lots of noise in the midst... i wonder what is the stuff that is so fragile... I comfort him that its ok if the thing turns out to be in bad shape.. it's the heart that counts

The moment I opened my eyes.. i saw a big red box.. the first thing comes to my mind was... " animal?" if it's an animal, i shall return... cos i'm scare of it..

To my surprise... the moment i opened the box, i saw tiny golden roses.. 100 handmade Ferrero roche roses... with rose petals around... I was utterly amazed and touched... speechless...

The best part of the celebration was the process in making the gift... the effort and the heart counts a lot..

Here are some pics

1 Corinthians 13:4-8a (NIV)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

RDMM Planning

2008-10-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

2 Thanksgiving to Him!

Firstly, thank God for 2 year1 NYP students crossing the line of faith to receive Jesus!!! Praise the Lord!!!!

Secondly, thank God for a refreshing time with RDMM team in planning 2009!

I just had Part2 POLYDINS 2009 planning just now with the RDMM team- Jas, Nel, Col, Abi

Initially can be slightly hard-going as our brains were still a bit stuck here and there... personally i'm stucked by the limitations, the past, the current situation.. however things change as the discussion went on.. ideas and more stuffs start running in!

Perhaps it was the starbuck iceblended mocha that had given me an adrenaline rush! (feel high whenever drinking coffee) I was praying to God to help me see macro not micro. Thank God! I could sense personally more aware and how God stretched my thinking! Started to drop down notes on hp! Shall muse over it these few days!

I could sense the spirit more up lifted towards the ending of the meeting! Not because we are looking forward to end... i guess its because we have a better and clearer pic of where we are heading in 2009.

New challenges, New ideas, New milestones, New Breakthrough!

God sees No Barrier!

Let's focus on the mountain mover than the mountain!

We are serving a great Almighty God!

DLC

2008-10-15T09:42:00.001+08:00

DLC

Every Tuesday DLC will be a time to stir my mind and heart... realising some of the things I had been doing had been ineffective. Need to improve my leadership skills. Realise the difference in the level of leaderships, skills and knowledge to acquire.

Really enjoyed the time with the instructors (Jasmine and Shirley Melinda) and Raphael, Sharlene, Dewen and Nel. The leaders are filled with vision and passion to advance the Kingdom of God. Many had been in church for more than 5 years or even 10 years... their passion for God and love for people never cease.

In the recent Lesson on Vision, Ps Shirls asked us what are 2 things that will disturb or irritate us. I shared that broken families and marriage disturbs me. Another area is the Youngs not living a purposeful life.

Vision starts with a concern. What is your concern?

Do we respond to the concern or shun it?

Something has to be done...

Last night when Jasmine was sharing with us about identifying problems in our group, looking at Spirit, Structure and Systems.. that was a great lesson. A great time of discussion. Many times God just spoke to me... this area... that area... this and that... Rev 2:4-5... God has warned us..

hm... need time to chew on this lesson... set my mind to think...

Leadership Camp 2008

2008-10-14T09:03:00.000+08:00

Leadership Camp 2008

A Great Theme: Advance! Personally, Locally and Globally

Time to renew, refresh and recharge.

A simple camp

with Almighty One

My heart was greatly moved at the last session of the prayer time. When we pray for one another.. My heart was greatly stirred.

What kind of life do I want to live for the next 10-50 years?

The key is how I live my life now...

Great Blessings @ Comex!

2008-09-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

Great Blessings @ Comex!

Great catch @ Comex on Sunday evening! It was really crowded! Went with Mr K to buy his bluetooth headset and also RAM/HD? (hahha dunno which one.. can see i am really new to this) Also taking a look for laptop that is value for money.

Finally after going through HP, Dell, Fujitsu, Asus, we ended up on the last station that is Toshiba.

Immediately when i saw Toshiba Protege... it really caught my attention! Attracted to the design and also the size less than 2kg! gd for travelling! After a great time negotiation, Mr K has helped me to neg for a very reasonably low price $1500! Lowered by $399! And also free bundles of upgrade to 4GB RAM, Intel Centrino Duo, Intel Core Duo processor, extend to 2 yr warranty, free security suites, mouse, 2GB thumdrive and other stuffs, top another $99 for MS office only which other dealers didn't offer! Not only that, I got a free 8.1 MP Toshiba Camera for redemption after HK LC trip! Cool Cool 2 toys to play with!

Greatest blessing was that, the White Toshiba Protege M800-A332 was the last piece when the time I make the purchase!

Thank God for His blessing, it comes just in time. Esp I felt so challenging, travelling around and only able to go online check email when I reach home at night. Now I can get myself connected more easily! which mean should improve my efficiency liao...

In this whole Comex trip, I was like a 'mountain tortoise' going to watch some gadget show. Knowing nothing... how to negotiate? what it takes to be value for money type of purchase? Specs? what's their differences in specs, how will it affect the performance? What is HD, MB, Core duo, Duo Core etc. It's a great time learning from Mr K. He is really patient to share and guide me through.

I was utterly amazed by him. He is patient, meticulous, resourceful, gd in negotiating. We were there for nearly 4hrs plus.. wah... i still remember the last quarter IT show, I just entered the place and purchased a printer within 20min. Recently, I also went to get printer ink, settled within 10min. Everything Chop Chop... no delay... no looking around.. But now experience a breakthrough stayed there 4 hours plus... its amazing.. definitely my knowledge has increased a fair bit. hahha

Really thank God for a fruitful time spent!

Looking forward to Hongkong LC! A time to get refreshed and recharged!

You are Worthy of All Praises!

2008-08-27T23:40:00.006+08:00

You are Worthy of All Praises!

Tiring yet excited! I couldn't contain the excitement, started to journal in my Nokia E61i while on my way back home on the bus.

This morning met up Huimei, we had a great time sharing lives. Indeed as you reach different stage of life, you tend to have more to share. And as a shep, more things to discover, learn and share. Esp r's. we were sharing about our lives, how God has blessed and move in our lives, our work, dreams, improvement areas of our ministry, potential growth point. Really appreciate the time where we can sharpen and encourage each other.

Had a long tuition marathon, travelling here and there. Feeling exhausted. By the time I reached Bishan.. waiting for Joel... I asked God for strength.. Oh Lord.. give me strength.. encourage me.. give me wisdom.. empower me!

Met up Joel. A fruitful time! Warning: if you ever go out with a chef or chef-to-be, you better let them choose the place they wanna eat cos they will have the tendency to critic if the food is badly served and that affects your appetite haha! (opps.. but not all chef.. just majority! =p) We went to foodcourt then to coffeebean. Cheese cake & Carrot cake!!!!!!!!! Never order Tropical Passion Latte--taste weird! but that kept us awake!

We had a good time sharing, stating different issue, chewing on the WOG, bringing out new challenges, new leadership perspectives, timeline urgency to disciple!! spar on certain thoughts on motivation and leadership.

Wow.. I cant contain that excitement that God is stirring in my heart! Things are going to get better and wonderful!

New perspective, insights and wisdom. refuse to circum to the limitation but trust in his unlimited strength and unexhausting power in His Truth and Promise!

The moment I reached home. Can't contain the joy and excitement! Had a great 30min jumping and praising God in my room. Sounds stupid.. but that was what i do last time... and now its back!!! that kind of joy and simple heart in serving Him. Simple joy. Simple trust.

A great exercise too! Sweat it out! Song that reflects my heart for Jesus now.

Praise you - Planet Shakers

I will praise You
Name above every name
'Cause I'm trusting
In Your Word every day

It don't matter
Even what people say
'Cause I'm walking
In my promise today

Even when I'm scared
When I'm in the lowest valley
I know that You are always there
And I will praise You

I will sing Your praise forever
I will sing, I will praise You
I will shout Your Name forever
I will sing, I will praise You

O Praise Him
Jesus, Jesus
Praise Him
All the earth
Praise Him

AHM 10km completed!

2008-08-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

AHM 10km Completed!
Praise God! Finally completed AHM 10km on last Sunday!

Still remember the last blog I shared about signing up this AHM 10km run. Sounded enthusiastic and really determined to train. However the training only last ard 1-1.5 months and I stopped. I started to put on weight too... hahhah... Girls! take note of your waistline especially when you are attached. You may have the tendency to eat more and there goes your thick waistline. That's why signing up AHM is a good way for me to shed some fats. Exercising is also a good way to build relationship too!

Thanks to Mr K and Shareen! Great partners to run with!

In this whole running process, I realise that I had improved in my breathing and stamina! Haha,,, still remember the week before, I ran with Mr K. 10 rounds in Hougang Stadium.. I barely ran for 3 rounds and I started panting heavily... almost breathless and whole body turn cold.. eventually try to finish 10 rounds.. which is 4km.

During the AHM, the first 4 km was rather easy, the challenge was towards 5th kilometre.. when you see people u-turn and run in opp direction, seeing them completed their 5km and moving to finishing line. I kept running and struggling towards the midway.. til I reach the U-turn.. I thought it was a great relief! but I still struggle.. thinking.. huh... only 50% completed? still another 5 km??? from 5-8km was plainly determination for me. My legs were so tired and in pain ( hee... long time didn't exercise) I started to look out for banners at the side stating " persevere", "determine", drink stations hee.. Thanks to Mr K for pacing with me..

From 8-9km.. my neck become longer... looking out for "1km to finishing"... funny thing was that I mistakened a board stating 10m and I quickly told Mr K that we have 10m more, jiayou! As I tilted my head, I realise I missed out 1 more Zero at the back. It was' 100m turn left to Esplanade 1km' .. what a big difference! I enjoyed the last 200m. We increased our speed and ran towards the finishing line. The feeling was great especially with all the spectators cheering for you. YEAH!!! we finished within 1hr17min as stated on the timex board, we didn't record our timing, we started slightly late cos too many people so our timing is definitely less than that!! Should be good timing huh! haha)

The moment I completed 10KM, the next thought was to sign up for 21Km Standard Chartered- which I did it immediately that night. 10Km is no longer a challenge and I am looking forward to another challenge.

Same as our spiritual life. At times we do struggle with the circumstances, challenges that you faced, you keep looking at your limitation and wonder how can things be better. However as you overcome and conquer the limitation by seeking God's guidance, you start to think that after all, things aren't that tough. Finally it's over. And you graduate and move to the next level of faith and challenge. Problems and challenges are good for us to stretch our faith and dependency on God. Once you see how God bring you through, you will feel glad that you had overcome the testing and here came the blessings.

My stamina and muscles are stretched in this training. Amazingly i feel lesser pain as compared to the time i run 10 rounds in stadium ( that pain is unbearable and lasted for many days). My muscles had been stretched. Our faith muscles also need to be stretched. I look forward to the next training for 21km Stand Chart. It's going to be exciting!

I also realise journey alone and with people make a difference. Journey with people and people who are close to you is another difference.

I thank God for the X2, Dmm, and Rdmm people, whom we serve together. Indeed this life journey becomes more wonderful and exciting with you around. Life is so much sweeter with Mr K. around too!

JUMP

2008-08-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

JUMP - Jesus U Must Praise

Last Friday, I received a call at 5pm from mum. She said that she was bored and asked me what's my program. I told her about the JUMP concert. She asked me whether she could join me. Of cos!!

By the time we reached there was around 8plus. My heart pumped very fast as i walked towards the fort canning... and the moment I saw the crowd... I felt so overwhelmed.. God, indeed you are good and faithful! We got the license to have this JUMP at Fort Canning, the rain has stopped, so many people turned up for this JUMP. My mum was so surprised that 7th month still have such happening things happen. Not 'Ge Tai' but JUMP Concert!

My mum was so funny... she listened to her MP3 Player while standing with me throughout the JUMP. Inside my heart I was feeling confused.. oh God.. how huh... my mum is not listening to you.. pls do something..

The next moment after I prayed, Jasmine came. I introduced Claudia and Jasmine to my mum. It has been around 5-6 years since Jasmine met my mum. I thank God that during the altar call Jasmine shared Christ to mum. I was praying while standing at the side. Mum didnt receive Jesus, however I sensed that her heart is real soft and open.. I believe that God has touched her heart, and I believe more to come. I believe my household will be saved. This day will come.

Some nice pics taken from Ps Jeff's blog

Time to update my life =)

2008-08-18T09:09:00.008+08:00

Updates updates updates! =)

oh.... it's time to update about my life! hee... yeah ... my blog is collecting layer and layer of dust... whooo.....

Since the last blog update til now is around 3 months plus..
These 3 months had been a great time for me. Definitely good news to shared with all!

If you have read Ace's blog or check out the facebook, you will know that I'm now single but not available hahha..

Indeed True Love Worth Waiting!

A few years ago, I remembered that I told one of my leaders that I want to serve in student ministry, going through different life stages, even getting attached and married here. I wanna trust God for the best as I give my best to serve Him. He is more than my saviour but the lord of my life. The author of my Life. Indeed God is faithful! Throughout this 8 years with Jesus, I witnessed how He has moulded me from a timid girl to someone who wanna attempt great thing for God. This whole process can be challenging, yet steadily growing!

I just feel overwhelmed by God's love for me. His faithfulness and patience. His tender love and wonderful plan for me. Now I am so excited of what is coming ahead in various life aspects! Definitely Life is going to be challenging yet fulfilling!

Grow Leanne Grow!

Here are some pics from Night Safari together with ULs, RDMM, Daniel and Mr K. haha

My beloved Mr K.
Mr K. - Kevin Chen is serving in the adult congregation. Always amazed by his spirit of gentleness. He loves God and takes great care of His flock with commitment and faithfulness. Single-minded, loving, humble and loyal man.
What trigger me to love this person more, is definitely his vision and willingness to be used by God fully. Always remember the night where we shared our vision and passion together, my heart was greatly touched by Him.

It's amazing how God brought us together. Thank God for the blessings from our sheps, friends and families. Knowing Mr K is one of the greatest blessings in my life! Definitely our next stage of life journey will be filled with great excitement cos God is with us!

Happy Mother's day

2008-05-11T23:29:00.006+08:00

Happy Mother's Day

Today after my tuition, I went to minitoon to buy sunflower with "thank you" wordings sewn on it-- soft toy kind. I decided to wrap the sunflower by myself. Oh.... I never know that wrapping flower is tough for me. I have hard time figuring out how to wrap. Why fake flower? Cos I want this flower to last... All these years I have been giving my mum real flowers and it will end up for me to use as dried flowers. This round I hope my mum can always get to see the flower even when I'm not around with her. She can think of us too when she read the hand-made card.

This year mother's day, we decided to pay grandma a visit. My foster grandma is 91 years old. She adopted my mum when my mum was still very young. My grandma used to be quite independent and strong, however in recent years, her health starts to deteriorate. She gets weaker and weaker.

When I reached my auntie's house. I realised the house was really quiet. No one celebrate Mother's day. I bought grandma's fav food and spend time watching her eating. I cant speak hokkien that well, all i can do is just be there with her... Took some pic with her. Before we actually leave for our dinner, I hold unto her hands tightly... just speechless... she just said this in hokkien, “有空要来看我。”

Just as what my grandma said, “有空要来看我。”

Isn't what she want also about time? My tears just welled up as I bid her goodbye. My auntie told me to stay there to accompany and take care of grandma when free. Free? 有空? I guess it's not abt free, but take time, make time for her.

Indeed, the most treasured gift that we can give to our parents is our time.

My brothers and I had a great time spent with my mum over the meal. We shared our lives and listened to our mum sharing too. Perhaps we no long stay with her, I feel that each time we spend is greatly treasured. I thank God for having such a wonderful mum. Since young she has been always giving her best to provide and care for us. Still remember she used to bring work like soldering, folding cards and boxes to do at home so as to have more time in guiding us, gradually she became a nanny, taking care of kids... and then she went out to learn new skills as an assistant then gradually become setting her own fish soup stall. She has been working hard to ensure that we are well provided. I thank my mum for her perseverance spirit. In this mother's day, I pray that God will bless and protect her. She will come to know the Lord very soon.

2 rounds to 8 rounds!

2008-05-10T14:19:00.004+08:00

2 rounds to 8 rounds!

Thanksgiving to God for this whole week of walk with Him!

Many things happen, good news hovering around the leadership team! I see God's faithfulness and unfailing love!

Even though from last Fri til Tues, these 5 days were challenging time for me, making decision in certain area. I see God's assurance and guidance til the end of this whole week! Every process of my thought I asked for his wisdom and enlightenment. Sometimes I really don't understand why I have to go through certain challenge. Yet deep inside my heart I know that He is growing me. He isn't there to fail me but point to me the great plan that has been in stored within!

Tues night I took an hour break in evening, leaving my hp and everything at home, went for a jog. I set a goal to complete 8 rounds in another park nearby my house. Trained on my breathing technique, pace and focus. Initially I had hard time control my breathing, yet I kept reminding myself it's impt to control and know how to breath rightly, or else it's hard to finish 10Km.

It's amazing I finished 8 rounds without panting so hard as compared to previous training! 8 rounds!!!!! Cool!!! My goal is to complete 25 rounds by end July. 25 rounds in park =10Km.

Oh... i feel so much energetic!!!

10KM AHM

2008-05-06T09:48:00.002+08:00

10KM AHM

Just signed up for 10KM AHM. When is the last time i run in a race? hm.. that was many years ago in the cross country in sec sch... old time stories about winning the 1st position for 2 years. That time I was still a pre believer. Running that race is to get recognition of my physical status that I can do well in sports too not just academic aspect. Out of that gentleness and weak perception.

Still remembered when I was in Sec 1 the cross country was cancelled due to rain. Sec 2, I took part cos I wanna escape from St John duty. I won the 1st cos of monkey chasing after me when i was in the midst of the forest. Sec 3, I decided to do St John duty, partly was that i had grown in my commitment in St john, and also I saw a lot of strong competitors--- my seniors all the sec 4 n 5s, definitely their hearts were to win their final lap in sec sch. So I didn't join hahha.. afraid to lose out..

Sec 4 was the time for me to run this final lap. Won the first, partly cos of the fear of being chased by monkey again, so i dun dare to slow down my pace, just kept running. Another reason was-- last lap, Just give my best.

This time round, the 10KM shall be new experience for me. I had never run such long distance in my life before. Maximum only in 3.5Km race during sch sports day or 3.2Km NAFA. So this 10????

Still remember last week I went to my nearby park for training... I felt like dying after the jog for 20mins.. felt giddy, leg cramp and whole body was liked inside the burning furnace and that was just 2 rounds the park! Then slowly increased to 3.5Km training... felt even worse.. so I cant imagine how will it be like for 10KM. But I take this as a gd reflection of my spiritual journey with God while in training...

This morning i was reading 2Cor 9:24-27

24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

Winning a race requires purpose and discipline. and Paul uses this illustration to explain that our Christian life takes hard work, self denial and grueling preparation. Indeed that's what i am experiencing recently.. having to make several tough decisions.. sometimes I just feel uh... God have you chosen the wrong person?

But as I was reflecting about Sat sermon that Ps Jeff has preached.. I was greatly touched and assured by God.

In this race the essential disciplines of prayer, bible study and worship equip us to run with vigor and stamina. I don't want to just merely observe from the grandstand, don't want to just turn out to jog a couple of laps each morning. But to train diligently--- that's the spiritual progress.

I have a goal in mind, but sometimes i feel real weak to achieve it, that's when I start turning to God, asking for more strength, wisdom and courage.

v 25, talk about at times we must even give up something good in order to do what God wants. without a goal, discipline is nothing but self punishment. With the goal of pleasing God our denial seems like nothing compared to the eternal, imperishable reward that will b ours.

Day in and out, meeting different people, it's easy to tell people how to live, overcome. but I myself must ensure that I do not lose out in this race. Leading a more disciplined life. Looking forward for a changed in thinking, living and growing!

Attention to Ace!

2008-05-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

Attention to Ace!

You Are CUTE!

Appreciate your openness in sharing your life. I appreciate that God has brought you into my life. Continue to dream BIG BIG BIG forJesus!

Thank U

2008-05-03T00:45:00.004+08:00

Heartfelt Appreciation

I thank God for helping me to witness his faithfulness and unfailing love through my people's lives. Each of their life, reflects about His love, faithfulness, grace, patience and indescribable love.

I was talking to Jasmine today when she mentioned to me that a leader shared with her that as he serve God, he is really serving to his tip top utmost that he can give.. doing things beyond himself. serving beyond his leadership.

ha ha... I guess that's something I've experienced too! I'm stretch beyond my personality, beyond that soft spoken, composed and mousy me! definitely more to come! I know that as I'm stretch, God is empowering, adding more empowerment and anointing.

The harder the challenge that is in front, the more certain I have that I am not alone in this. God is with me. God is with me. He is with me. He never leave me alone. He is going to fulfil His promises.

I was chatting with a bro and as we shared, I reflected even more. and finally here's the conclusion that he gathered which I agreed!

"I've understood, that things happen in my life for a reason. whatever i go thru now, good or bad, is still under God's control. and mainly they happen for the reason so that i can overcome, and eventually be able to guide others to overcome similar things."

The key is Appreciate. Appreciate and give thanks to the Lord in all circumstances.

ARETE CAMP THEME NITE

2008-04-03T23:56:00.003+08:00

ARETE CAMP PICS

Some of the NYPians

The DIans

RP pics on the way!

rocker vs sophisticated

Punky Rockers for the NITE... New dress style for Jas. Oh can't believe that I can be part of punk rocker family too! Thanks for Randall, Nel and Meihua's help! (your accessories, make up and eyeliner really work!)

For more pics click here:

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Youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UsVT_0k_v4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4UaJs_HJcY0

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mr_bRK4F5bE

ARETE CAMP 2008

2008-04-02T01:49:00.007+08:00

ARETE CAMP 2008

Just returned from the POLYDINS Camp. This year the camp theme is ARETE which means quality. Building qualities in life.

I truly want to thank God for Abigail and her team for their hard work and sacrifice. Thank God for those who had sleepless nights just to ensure the notes are done well and given out to all campers. There are some who practise praise and worship til late nights just to ensure we have a great time of praise and worship, ministered by God. Not forgetting those who involved in admin, accommodation, logistic, finance, housekeeping, food and deco. Applause to all the unsung heroes behind this camp.

In fact it's more than the teachings that taught us about ARETE. The way I see how the camp committees served, I see life examples of building a quality church!

Talent Nite
Wow.. amazed by all the hidden talents in each campus! Every campus brought out their best talents and performances.. bringing out the theme of the camp. It was an eye-opener experience for me to see so many hidden talents uncovered in this night. Great actors, actress, dancers, musicians, script writer etc I can see the our Poly Svc coming to past! Definitely God is going to pour out abundance of blessings unto the faithful ones.

Workshops

Something exciting to share is that in this camp that I had learnt to set mission statement. During the workshop conducted by Yin San from adult to conduct workshop on Personal Management, I've learnt about setting our mission statement too!
Usually when people asked me about my life goal or what I wanna do in my life...I will have to share very long just to let them know about my heartbeat... but now I'd learnt to put my mission in just 1 sentence!

My mission is to impart, impact and influence tertiary students to win all courses in the campuses and be future church planters.

Some asked me whether is it going to be a lifetime? well... this is my personal conviction and definitely allow God to lead where he wants me to go. But so far I really know where I wanna invest my life in.

Teachings

In this camp, we had invited Ps Jeff to share with us teaching on Reproducing life. We had a great time laughing and learning. Indeed Ps Jeff has his unique way in helping us to learn and understand some important principles of WOG to be applied in our life.

Supper

Over the supper with Ps jeff and the ULs above, we had a great time discussing about Hope movement, our church direction and also hearing from him about his port folio in church. I can see that our church will grow to be more united and vibrant! Clearer vision and direction charged.

Just as we were chatting, Ps Jeff brought up a question to the leaders, " What do you want to see yourself in 3years time if there's no obstacle to your life or your group or in whatever you are doing?

In fact at certain point in our life, it's either our dream has shrunk or we don't dare to dream.. cos we are affected by the loads of obstacles and problems in our life. However when we remove the obstacle, we start to dream bigger. It's important to take time to dream.. when there's no obstacles or hindrances.. what will you see yourself? Dream Big for Jesus!

I want to see CG filled up in every courses in the campuses. 300 people in each campus. (just imagine CG in every course, definitely hit 300 plus) When There's no obstacle... I felt that my dream grows bigger! It's good to dream and it's important to work towards our dream.

Teaching

Personally, I had learnt a great lesson through the preparation of the camp teaching too. Having to teach 4 topics within 1.5 hr is really a challenge for me. The challenge was that for the past 2 days, Jasmine's teaching has greatly inspired many people and Ps jeff's tecahing has lightened many hearts. While for me, I had to deliver the teaching on the 3rd day of camp where most of the campers were feeling tired after that late night fellowship the night before. It was super challenging for me to keep them awake or alive.

I still remembered the initial part of my teaching, I was sharing with them a joke and no one laugh until I told them " Eh... it's actually a joke" and that made everyone LOL. There were many hiccups during my teaching and overlooked certain thing. Definitely, I shall improve to be a better speaker. Yesh.. I shan't give up!

Indeed God's grace is enough.. in this camp I was reminded of His faithfulness, love and grace for me. There are times i feel so weak, so small, so unequipped. Yet I realise this.. I recognise God's strength, greatness and power.

Theme Nite

Not forgetting the finale of the camp that is the Theme Nite. We dressed up in various dress code. I dress to be a punk rocker. Thanks to Nel and Abigail in helping me.. hahha... I was amazed I can be a punk rocker! The RDMM team also dressed very differently!

The Sophisticated vs Rocker. I enjoyed the great catwalk and also the dance. We should serve hard and play hard too! Enjoyed the Theme nite!

The unforgettable moments would be the time where all of us were given 10 strings. We are to tie the string unto the wrists of those whom have impacted our life and wanna affirm them in words. It was a great time that we showed our heartfelt appreciation to one another. Many were moved to tears... Thank God for My shepherd Jas, Rdmm team, Dmm team, sheep and bro & sis.. Indeed without God, without vision, without a simple desire... we wouldnt have come to serve together. =)

That reminds me of a sentence while reading a leadership book recently. "Flatter me, and i may not believe you. Criticise me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you."

Indeed the ability to influence is a natural by-product of encouragement. When a person feels encouraged, he can face the impossible and overcome incredible adversity.

Impart, Impact, Influence

2008-03-26T02:02:00.007+08:00

Impart . Impact . Influence

Oh!!! I am so alert! Initially i still thought of making coffee to keep me awake so that I can prepare for camp teaching!

However, when i come online msn, catch up with a few people. I felt refreshed and empowered. Especially chatting with weihong and evangeline from NYP. It's amazing that we could share so many things under the moon and personally I benefited a lot from the sharing and discussion over msn. Definitely I can see that the hearts of our people are to advance God's kingdom. Things that matter to hearts are brought up to discuss so that we can see things improve and Kingdom of God advance.

It's so wonderful! I felt God's presence and anointing as we shared our views and thoughts. Why are certain thing matter to us? Why do we bring it up? What did the bible say? How should we respond to certain issue? What kind of attitude are we bringing when we see or think about certain thing?

Indeed the whole msn conversation was so fruitful and encouraging!

Just imagine... everyday the moment we switch on our computer or laptop.. we do not just go youtube/ surf net finding lame jokes/ gossip... but we share our learnings, spar some thoughts, bring up some matters to clarify and discuss, suggest ways to improve and affirm one another's growth, recognise and appreciate one another's effort, support our leaders. Wah... I can see each day I myself get refreshed as we connect with one another in a healthy way! Communication is important.

Thanks to weihong and evangeline for your type-out prayers too! 很感动！谢谢你们为我祷告！

From Weihong:
"God, i really want to entrust my sister here, Li Yan into your hands, that You will give her wisdom to share during teaching in this camp. I pray that she will be confident in teaching and really share from the bottom of her heart, to touch, impact, impart & influence ppl's life, i pray that the teaching will not be just made up of words, but many emotions as well, i also pray that u will give her ideas to illustrate her point, n give her the support that she needs, the assurance that U will always be with her. Father i pray for your help n wisdom n discernment when she leads X2. God, i pray u will give her life testimony to share n soften the ppl hearts' who are hardened, that they may turn back to u n repent. Father, i know U are with us, all these i pray in Jesus name, Amen"

From Evan:
God, i pray for my leader and sister Leanne that Lord, u see her heart to do more things for You and also wanna do things in a better way. God, help her and give her the words, stories and good illustrations to teach Your people so that the people will be able to learn a lot from Your Word as only Your Word changes lives! God, though i may not know a lot abt her needs, You are in control. amen!

A fruitful catch up with 2 young man and woman who wanna do more for God!

And that the reason why I don't need coffee for tonight to keep me awake! As we were discussing the word of God and ministry matters, i just got so excited! Can't wait for the camp to come!

X2- 120 - 3Is ---- Impact, Impart, Influence 120

Thank You Heavenly Father

2008-03-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

Thank You Heavenly Father

Haven been updating my blog for a long a long time.. actually i kept lots of drafts just didn't publish my post.. all written in my daily journal book.

However this morning I have the urge to blog as I received a msg from a great friend of mine--

' The courage to take risks and to reach for a dream is there for all of us. God doesn't offer life without challenge. He offers grace to those with courage. '

--- meaningful statement!

Thanksgiving to the Lord:

I thank God for his providence. He never fails to provide for me. Looking back at 8 years walk with him, indeed never a day will I go hungry.. He provides me with physical and spiritual food, enriched me with wisdom and anointing.

I thank God for the friends He give. I experience a breakthrough in building friendship. I thank God for the opportunity He has given. Really treasure what He has given.

I thank God for his grace. Remember the time when I have to take courage to face the difficulties and struggles, making tough decision in my life. Holy Spirit has been prompting me. He knows when I struggle, when I needed help, when I needed his assurance, when I needed his warm embrace.. Taking courage, making decision to surrender and overcome. Finally, I experience His awesome power and grace.

In the recent preaching experience, I really thank God that He knows me so well... when I struggled, when I overcame and when I'm ready for new challenge.. As I redo the script on that Thurs night... instead of panicking I was filled with peace and joy within. I experienced His great power and love... I know His presence was with me. He's watching over me. Thanks to my Shep Jas who guided me too, giving me great advice...

As I reflect, my heart was filled with gratefulness to Him..

2 Cor4:13-18

It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken."With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Leadership Conference @ KL --- A Loyal Church

2008-01-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

Leadership Conference @ KL --- A Loyal Church

A good start of the year 2008 by attending this LC. Having a clearer understanding and view on our Hope movement. This round of LC taught us about character and attitude. 'Loyalty'- a word that we seldom mentioned yet so important in building spiritual longevity.

Just as I was so excited and wanted to look through my teaching notes, I realised that I lost my LC book. My sheep told me she found and put it inside one of the LC bag. Oh if you have my LC book, kindly pass to me. Thanks dear kind soul. hee... I prayed that I can find my book v soon.

On the last day of LC, we have a few hours of free time before taking the coach back to sg. I went with Ace, Huimei and Lalita for Thai massage at Sunway Pyramid. In the end only Ace and I tried out. I chose the legs and back massage. The massage was great, i felt much better than Phuket. However I realised that I ended up with bruises on my legs and back when I return to sg. I thought that I could bear with the pain that the staff gave. Thinking it should be normal to feel the pain when they massage you... hahhaha... yeah... funny... went for massage to relax, end up bringing patches of bruises and pain home.

Application from this LC:

Pledge to be loyal to God, church, my leader and people whome I was appointed to take care. Deeper understanding of the WOG. Campus 100.

The second last day of the conference, when we were told to go to our leaders to express our appreciation to them. I walked to Ps Ben, Ps Jeff and Jasmine to give thanks to them. That night after the teaching, we were supposed to pray. In my mind I thought of Jasmine, and I was so moved within. My heart was stirred and moved to tears as I prayed. 'Rise to the Call' kept ringing in my mind, it's the best way you can express loyalty to God and my leader. If I love my shepherd, I shld release her to do what she has called to and I, myself rise to the call and be trained, be all God wants me to be. The only thing that can stop one from growing aren't circumstances or problems but yourself. You choose not to grow, not to rise up, not to believe and trust fully in Jesus.

So at that moment, I started to respond to God. I don't want to be Judas Iscariot. I want to be Ittite the Gittite, Caleb, David, Esther, Paul.... Rise to the Call, Longevity in Serving Him, Courageous, Loyal...

I thank God for a good start of 2008. Having clearer vision and growing desire for Him. Turning 25 soon and going to be 8 years in knowing Christ (received Jesus in 2000 March). I look forward a fruitful 25! Making my life counts. Moving forward with faith and trust.

Here are some pics we took in LC:

First night of LC in our traditional costumes!

Pic with Lennon! Cool Chef-to-be!

Pic with Jey! Pure SG Indian! & Randall in Cheong Sam!

Pic with Ps Prakich & team

Indian and Nepalese costume! With our Hope Kids adults! ex-nypians!

More pics coming...

Bye 2007. Welcome 2008.

2008-01-18T01:12:00.001+08:00

Bye 2007. Welcome 2008.

Wooooooh..... blowing off the virtual dust on my blog...

Year 2007 is a year i will never forget in my life, from the beginning til the end. It was challenging and tough. Moving to another stage of life, exposing to new issues in life, learning new things, taking up new leadership, realising my weaknesses.. and the list goes on... Yet God's grace is always sufficient for me. I witnessed His faithfulness, patience, love and grace for me. He is a loyal and faithful God. He never failed to shelter me when I needed help. He never failed to comfort me when I was in dismay. He never failed to provide me when I was in need. He is faithful. His love endures forever.

During the countdown for 2008 @ Boat Quay, I was thinking what year 2008 be liked. I was a bit fearful and uncertain. I hope to witness some breakthroughs in my life.

Just like what Jasmine had prayed for me over the DL huddle recently, that the old will be gone and the new will come. A fresh start is all I am asking for. A fresh start in my walk with God.

Just came back from Hope Leadership Conference (LC) @ KL. As I was on my way from from KL, i was chatting with one of my sheep, Ace. Throughout the whole journey we just keep sharing about what we want to see in campus ministry, what we want to do in our life time, what we have learn from LC and discovering bible characters that seldom taught or mentioned. I was just so excited that I couldn't sleep throughout this whole journey.

I felt that there's a spiritual renewal and revival within me. I felt so refreshed and charged. Vision getting clearer and wider. I felt so blessed to be serving in Hope movement, that I can have the privilege to serve God with people who are visionary and have the heart for Jesus,committed to Jesus,faithful to Jesus. Indeed God is awesome. He is so awesome and marvelous.

DMM Steamboat Dinner @ Korean Restaurant!!!

2007-12-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

DMM Steamboat Dinner @ Korean Restaurant!!!

This pic had been kept inside my hp file for 2 weeks... finally pic is up!
A great time spent with friends who have strong conviction in God. Strong desire to hunger for His word. Courage to attempt big things for Jesus!

Different personalities but same Passion for Jesus. Different heights but same yearning increasing depth of love for Jesus!

Great team to play together, laugh together, grow together, learn together, chiong together! This is the RDMM team!!! Love you all!

Romance with Him

2007-11-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Romance with Him

I have loved you with an everlasting love

---God (Jeremiah 31:3)

Finally.. come to an understanding of someone who has all along been patience and loving to me... I am in Love again!

Recently I have been reading this book written by John & Stasi Eldredge, ' Captivating'. It means 迷人，有魅力。

A woman becomes beautiful when she knows she's loved. Cut off from love, rejected, no one pursuing her, something in a woman wilts like a flower no one waters anymore. She withers into resignation, duty and shame. The radiance of her countenance goes out, as if a light has been turned off. But this same woman, who everyone thought was rather plain and unengaging, becomes lovely and inviting when she is pursued. Her heart begins to come alive, come to the surface and her countenance becomes radiant. We wonder,"Where has she been all these years? Why, she really is captivating."

As woman we long to beloved in certain way, a way unique to our femininity. We long for romance. We are wired for it; it's what makes our hearts come alive. We know that. Somewhere, down deep inside, we know this. But what we might never known is this...

This doesn't need to wait for a man.

God longs to bring this into our life himself. he wants us to move beyond the childlike "Jesus love me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so." He wants to heal us through his love to become a mature woman who actually know him. he wants us to experience verses like, "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into desert and speak tenderly to her" (hos 2:14). And "You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride" (Song 4:9). Our hearts are desperate fore this. What would it be like to expereince for yourself that the truest thing about his heart toward ours is not disappointment or disapproval but deep, fiery, passionate love? this is after all, what a woman was made for. ----- Captivating

Do not misunderstand that woman despise man.. this passage is talking about the kind of longing for romance. This romance with God.

I am falling in love again.

Falling in Love with Jesus.

Soaked in His love with immense pleasure.

Ever since the LC phuket trip, I have been challenged to stretch and grow... sometimes i failed to see what is ahead.. I failed to understand what God is trying to teach me in each circumstance that I faced. Sometimes things just doesn't make sense for me why I have to go through.. there's guilts, regrets, hurts, disappointments.

But I realise when I make a decision to surrender to Jesus. I felt the peace within that no words of comforts from man could even fill my heart. I felt the immense love showered by Him. I witness the abundance of blessings lavished upon me. He restored my heart, He healed my broken heart, He led me out of the wilderness to see how great is His plan for me.

Speechless... for a moment

Finally many things make sense.. i start to understand that He knows me so well.. my worries, concerns, fear, weakness, struggles.. He has lifted me up once again.

This song start to ring in my heart..

Divine Exchange

My heart is captivated Lord by You alone

Captured by the awesomeness of You alone

Melted by the grace and mercy You have shown

I stand in wonder

I reach to you the one who make the blind can see

Who break the chains of sickness with authority

Restoring of what was broken

So we may fly again

I live to worship you

I breathe to worship to you

All of my days, your face I'll seek

For as I worship you

You lead me to that place

To that place of divine exchange

Happy Birthday Dawn

2007-11-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWN!

had a great catch up with Dawn on her bday (11/11 sun)! we went to Menotti. Gave her surprise hee... Intro you sofiato-- still the best. I like the apple pie too, its great esp match with ice cream!

We had a great time sharing lives.. I am thankful to have such a great covenanted friend in my life. Remembered the time we quarrel, cried and laugh.. sometimes looking back i felt that God has moulded us to be more mature.

Dawn, I prayed that God will lavish great blessings unto you as you draw closer with Him daily. Making you more beautiful and attractive. A courageous and visionary woman of God. Shine for Jesus! Love You!

X2SP Leadership Camp 2007

2007-10-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

X2SP Leadership Camp 2007

Radical Nite
It was amazing to see everyone put on different costumes within half hour after teaching time!

RPians!!!

Shrek (kelvin) and Me!

Jorris & Joella frm SP

My co-host- Randall (Ms Phua Chu King)

Celest & kaisze Cat's family frm NYP

Ready for a fight!

Clowns.. Cats... weirdo.. Huo Huo Huo

Angel (Martin) & Devil (Me)

Learning Time ... serious... focus... deep thoughts....

Break Camp with Great memories and charged heartbeat for Jesus! chiong Ah!

LEADERshIP cAMp

It's more thAn just a time of being radical in dressing.. but being radical for Jesus! Living a radical life!

It's more than just a time of playing games but a time to build deeper friendship, ENCOURAGE one another to move strongly together as One!

It's more than just time to be inspired but to perspire! SweaT all Out!

CHARGE!!!!!! x2sp! bREAKING THE bARRIErS! 150 & 50!

:::: Thank to the Camp committee! Thanks! Indeed teamwork is important! I treasure all of You! It's so wonderful to work with all of You!::::

What is Radical Nite?

2007-10-11T00:42:00.000+08:00

A Radical Nite

This pic was taken in 2002.. time flies.. and now.. it's 2007!

Still remember that night I was supposed to host with Jenny. I had forgotten what kind of celebration we were having but I remembered each campus was suppose to dress according to their desired team. NYP dressed up like characters in Pirates of Caribbean!

I remembered that day when I put up this pirate look.. hardly anyone could recognise me that night! Hee! A breakthrough! It was my first time changing my image and hosted in front of so many people, leading the whole event.

Radical Nite.. it's more than just a theme party, but we learn to be creative, bold and courage to deny ourselves and do something different and radical. Be all you can be for Jesus!

Be radical for Jesus!

I look forward to 2007 Radical Nite in Leadership Camp!

Finding the Missing Rib/ Life on a Single Bed vs King sized Bed

2007-10-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Finding the Missing Rib

As I was preparing for the leadership camp notes just now...

Andrew smsed me regarding the workshop he is going to conduct in the leadership camp... he shared his learning over sms that goes...

about the book of Genesis where the word rib was mentioned regarding Adam and Eve...

" Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him but out of his side to be equal with him. Under his arm to be protected by him and near his heart to be loved by him."

Hm... such a loving expression of love from God's Creation.

The Ant and the Contact Lens

2007-10-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

Read an email forwarded by Leslie.. find it very interesting ...

THE ANT AND THE CONTACT LENS

A true story by Josh and Karen ZarandonaBrenda was a young woman who was invited to go rock climbing. Although she was very scared, she went with her group to a tremendous granitecliff. In spite of her fear, she put on the gear, took hold of the rope, and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got to a ledge where she could take a breather. As she was hanging on there, the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out her contact lens. Well, here she is, on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below her and hundreds of feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and looked, hoping it had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there.

Here she was, far from home, her sight now blurry. She was desperate and began to get upset, so she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it. When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but there was no contact lens to be found. She sat down, despondent, with the rest of the party, waiting for the rest of them to make it up the face of the cliff.

She looked out across range after range of mountains, thinking of that verse that says, "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me."Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom. At the bottom there was a new party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff.

One of them shouted out,
"Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the rock, carrying it on it's back.

Brenda told me that her father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with the words, "Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."

I think it would probably do some of us good to occasionally say, "God, I don't know why you want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to carry it, I will."

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him...I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)

6 Weird Things about Me

2007-09-28T02:30:00.000+08:00

6 Weird Things about Me

from Jasmine's and Abi yuyu's blog. Rules: Each player of the game starts off by writing 6 weird things about themselves before choosing another 6 of their friends to sabotage. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog on their own, 6 weird things about themselves and state the rules clearly.

Jasmine's 6 weird things...
1. I don't like mushroom!
2. I like to sit with legs bended out and form a M shaped!
3. I swallowed a chewing gum when i was young and I thought I'm going to die in the next 1 hour!
4. I like Chemistry, my favourite subject!
5. If I have chance, I would love to travel to 238 countries in my life time. (I will be very old by then and I need to be super rich)6. I love cartoon smurfs - a small blue creatures....
Tag : Nel, Lennon, Leanne, Donald, Ps Jeff, Micheal Santoso

Leanne's 6 weird things...

1. I used to sleep like a frog when I was young.. sit with legs bended out and form a M-shaped and rest on bed comfortably.

2. I love tomatoes and if I were to go church planting, just a tomato farm is gd enough for me to survive. Used to cook tomato porridge when i am saving money, tomato maggi mee soup(no msg), tomato bread(found in Breadtalk), chips with tomato flavour, i just wonder why no tomato sweets, tomato man???

3. I am health conscious person and can eat Yong Tau Foo soup for consecutive days of shepherding and meetings without getting sianz.

4. My nick name used to be "Wu Gui Mei"-Tortoise Girl when I was young.. cos i do things very slowly, eat very gently and slowly, walk very slowly, I tend to order food first yet last to come cos i only order to myself speaking so softly.. that no one can hear.. usually first to order food but last to finish cos i count my noodles! (thats what my mum said)

5. I hated sports when in Pri Sch cos there was once i thought i could do well in High Jump with great confidence, I ran towards the High Jump pole and slipped.. with my legs stuck underneath the thick mattress.. from that day onwards.. I hated sports in pri sch..

6. I won the 1st in sec sch annual cross country for 2 years cos of being chased by monkeys! I won 1st in all long distance 400, 800, 1500m run and that's when I no longer hear my mum calling me "Wu Gui Mei"

TAGGED: Names begin with A-Z, All who read my blog! All secret readers who din tagged! ha ha ha...

X2 Prayer Meet and Mooncake Celebration

2007-09-28T02:19:00.000+08:00

X2 Prayer Meet and Mooncake Celebration

On Tuesday, we had a great time praising and worshipping God! everyone just enjoyed the prayer meeting! I felt refreshed and charged too!

hahaha... my first time carrying lanterns and walk around the industrial park outside jacob's place! It was a good experience!

Felt like a kid! hahha ...

X2-- the most happening group! I love X2! Alive Acts Generation!

Praise God! I have a little voice!

2007-09-28T01:50:00.000+08:00

Praise God! I have a little voice!

Finally after a few days of "Quiet Time".. my voice is coming back!

This morning as I woke up, again I looked into the mirror and talked to myself.. no voice.. Got upset again.. my dad asked me to talk and he brewed some herbal medicine for me.. I shake my head.. nothing comes out..

Then my dad stood near me and tapped on my shoulder asked me with great concern, "Are you a mute? Are you ok?"

I was so upset.. just prayed that miracle will happen immediately.

Then dunno what happen as I faced the computer, i just murmured to myself something.. i realised that I could talk! broken sentence with husky deep voice.. hee..

I pray that I will have speedy recovery. complete recovery. Trying to be discipline not to eat moon cakes, chocolates and kfc.. have to bear a few more days!

Thanks for all the care and concern, loads of herbal drinks and lozenges! Hey dude my scream is coming back soon! LOL

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Just had supper with my 2 younger brothers! We felt hungry and decided to go out for supper! I enjoyed the time together! Oh my brothers-- Daniel and Samuel.. One is 22 another is 16 this year.

Next time I shall post their pics. They looked handsome hhaha!

It was a great catch up! I love it! We used to have family outing when we are young, however ever since my parents' r/s got affected and as we grew up to have our own thinking and circles of friends, our family bonding lessened too.. through this supper, i really looked forward to see something change in my family. I believe that God is going to bring this family together again. me and my household will be saved. I shall organise more outings! Starting with my siblings!

I thank God for my spiritual family too! My RDMM and DMM are my next immediate family members. We are covenanted brothers and sisters in Christ! I looked forward to see my friends and family members getting into this Big spiritual family.

Father in heaven, I know you are working through us to see all your children coming back to you one day. :) Thanks daddy in Heaven!

Looking forward to meet you. :)

Leadership Camp 2007

2007-09-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

X2 & SP

LEADERSHIP CAMP 2007

@ HOMETEAMNS Bukit Batok

GREAT THINGS HAPPENING!

BE READY TO LEARN>INFLUENCE>IMPACT

12- 14 October 2007

Voiceless Encounters

2007-09-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

V.o.i.c.e.l.e.s.s. Encounters

After popping all sorts of medicated pills, drinking different colour of herbal tea, tasted various types lozenges and hearing much persuasion by my dad, finally went to see a better doc... better doc = exp med = heal faster?

I went alone to my neighbourhood clinic to see famous Dr Ang. I saved my sickness record in the hp and showed her.. she read out and asked me how many days have I not been talking? and asked me to try to talk to her.. speechless.. she say i got 0 voice... She told me she will prescribe some strong medication for me since mild one doesn't help much..

Ended up paying $94! Honey spray, voice pills (is there such pill?), concentrated cough syrup and strong antibiotic(5pills for $45)...

Now faithfully taking medication, I wanna recover soon!!!

Interesting encounters during this voiceless period:

1. I have a list of missed calls - not able to pick up hp nor house phone. Tried answering calls for my dad when he was away, ended up the other party couldn't hear me talking.. keep asking, "hello are you there?" I got so fad up and i hanged up the calls... cos no one can hear me hahha

2. My dad liked to ask me qns when i am not near him, so its hard to answer him, i have to go in front of him and nod my head or bang on something to answer. There are nights He looked at me and asked me whether I will become mute or not.. haha faint..

3. My communication at home is using comp to talk to my bro. Type out msg and get bro to read to my family members what I wanna share.. There was once my bro sms me when I return home late, saying that I need to reach home early if not meet baddies i also cant scream for help! (yeah quite true...)

4. My people had hard time reading between my lips hhaha.. some cant see my handwriting while others dun understand what I am whispering about. I am like playing charade with them throughout the time.

Even tdy prayer meet and mooncake celebration time, I couldn't pray out loud nor sing..oh its upsetting.. so ended up went to toilet and pray cos that's the time i can hear my own voice and communicate with Him.

Thank God for my ULs and CLs who had been serving hard in leading this PM and Mooncake celebration. The people really enjoyed worshipping and praying to God. I was personally being refreshed and recharged too.

I cant wait for to regain my voice! I wanna shout and praise God! I wanna talk talk talk! I wanna eat KFC Zinger!

Voiceless

2007-09-24T11:30:00.000+08:00

V.O.I.C.E.L.E.S.S.

Last week was one of the most quiet week I ever spent in my life, not that nobody was around me or I live in isolated place but I can only use my ears more and speak lesser.. Since Tues I felt pain all over my body and bones.. and started to have fever, sore throat and cough til suddenly lost of voice..

On Sat I was supposed to teach WFL lessons.. so on my way i kept praying.. " God you must heal me, let me speak." The moment I reached the Coleman College, I started with with soft gentle husky voice but as i continue to share more I realised my voice became louder and louder. I kept thanking God for preserving my throat for the WFL.

Immediately after the WFL, I realised my voice become softer.. Svc.. jasmine has to take over me to end worship and Ben do the welcome, while I just lead the Holy communion. First time service lead with sexy manly deep voice.. the moment I was on stage speaking thru the mic.. I was stunned by my deep voice, I guessed the audience were shocked to hear too. Some said that they closed their eyes, getting ready for holy com, but realised a new guy's voice til they lifted up their head and were shocked to see me. Thank God for David trying his best to tune my mic... usually soundman had to lower my pitch due to my natural high pitch tone but that service, it was the other way round.

And on Sunday morning when I woke up I realised I had lost my voice completely... and this make me panic even more.. cos i have WFL again.. oh i miss my co-instructor joel, my dear ul... again I prayed to God to heal me, yet at the same time thinking through what can be done creatively in WFL so that I wont waste the people's time. We had a silent class.. and I had to teach by writing on he board, the class were grouped to think of creative way to describe God from Letter A-Z. Wow.. I am amazed by their creativity in describing God! then after that we had 2 hrs of bible study on the book of Ephesians..guided with some questions for them to do a Bible study report.

Throughout these 4 days of losing my voice, I was upset with my voice as words are the voice of my heart yet I cant expressed out freely, I felt handicapped. That make me realise something that is God has given us voice to sing and praise him, to encourage and affirm.. and I need to treasure it when I have it.

Another thing is that we can practice talk lesser and listen more (for those who tend to talk a lot like me at times haha).. you will start to understand what happen to the people around you, why they feel happy or hurt, how are they feeling etc.. Throughout the week, beside writing, sometimes i just choose to listen more.. I realise there's lot of new thing and concern from the people that sometimes I may have overlook. And its during this time of speaking lesser, I can listen to God's voice more... and enjoy the Quiet Time..

Impressive!

2007-09-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Oh came across this webby!

So impressed by Paul Potts's is impressive!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k08yxu57NA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHYYz_mGP1U&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLHq7rgHOLk

Watch it! enjoy the music!

Curry-ful Sunday

2007-08-28T11:50:00.000+08:00

"Curry-ful" Sunday!

Sounds weird by the title "Curry-ful Sunday" ...Indeed we had a great time eating curries in Leslie's house! Leslie's mum is away for visit to England for the past 1 months plus. She has prepared great frozen pre-cooked dishes for Leslie. All these dishes are packed nicely with labelling and stored in the freezer. So whenever Leslie wanna have meal, can just heat them up with his multi-layered steam pot. i just wonder does it explain his slender body shapes.. hee..

We ate the curry chicken and beef ( but taste like mutton).. it was real good and tasty! No one will ever tell it's a frozen food if not mention! We brought along some packed food like fried carrot cake, popiah, you tiao.. hey its taste good to dip the you tiao in the curry! try it!

Jey, Leslie, Ace and I had a great time fellowship... initially coming to see house to see his weekend dog. But to our disappointment.. the dog didn't turn up that day.. oh that cute puppy... i was prepared to give myself a chance to overcome sg dog but too bad..

Well we also watched the la pi xiao xing... again whenever you came to leslie's house, he will try to influence you to like xiao xing ad jay chou.. hee..

Enjoy the time of fellowship.. it great to serve God with a bunch of excited leaders who has the passion and conviction to do great things for Jesus. Our lives has been greatly changed by Him.

Agree with what nel has taught during the rdmm about the giving church -- we give to God without feeling pain but with great gratitude cos we know God has given us everything and He is worthy. He is worthy! When you love a person, you won't mind spending much on the person cos you know this person is worthy. It's the same to God. He is worthy of all praises and giving. In fact He is the one who created everything and He shares his pleasure generously with us. :) Oh I feel loved by You!

Movie Marathon

2007-08-16T11:45:00.000+08:00

Movie Marathon

It was my first time watching 2 movies within a day! A great catch! Must watch 'Secret' and '881'!

Met up with the NYP ULs in the morning @ PS, we had lunch and movie together! Watching movie is not within my plan or agenda. But becos of Leslie persuasion and strong encouragement for us to watch "the secret"... we felt the urge not to miss that movie. indeed it is a secret which I cant tell.. thus no decription abot the movie. Just watch it.

Here's some interesting picwhich we posed... it's camera trick!

In evening time, I met up with the DI ULs for dinner and movie. This round again, I didnt plan to watch movie, however over the dinner we kept talking about 881, and we realised 3 of us had not watch it. So we decided to catch a movie at AMK hub. Hee.. After the show, when the lights on, we are amazed that 70% of audience are older than us, most of then are in their 50s above! Cool!

Although I cant speak hokkien fluently, but I can understand the language.. it's really an enjoyabe movie. I intend to watch another 2 times as I am giving a treat to my parents for movie!

Sleepless nights

2007-07-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

Sleepless Nites

With the advanced technology of handphone- using nokia e61i. I no longer need to fight with my brother over the use of comp. I can simply lie on my bed with comfort and check emails and blog, journal down my thoughts, plan my quarterly, monthly, weekly schedule, listen to music, podcast sermon, read online articles just at a finger tip!

Thank God for my dad being loyal faithful Singtel user i could get exclusive discount on this hp n sign up MIO wireless Internet plan n free hm outgoing call from home!
Hee.. Sound like i am endorser for singtel svc, shd they give me some incentives???

Now is already 2plus.. Hard time getting myself to sleep. The best time i can sleep is on bus and train. The moment I reach home i will have tendency do things, read up stuff, catch up with ppl online.

Recently i tried to play music while i tried to sleep, who knows.. When i listened to praise song I get excited and couldn't sleep. I tried worship songs n end up i had nightmare. Then i tried to play one fav worship song repeatedly.. This make me feel slightly sleepy hee..

Last night after a short catch up w mx online at 2am, i went to read her blog and came across this blog

http://www.ashleyisourangel.blogspot.com

After i read through this blog, i was really moved by the parents' faith & trust in God despite of losing 3 children. Within a day they have to face birth and death of Ashley. Yet i know God will not make any mistake, He has his sovereign plan. But how does man face birth & death is such a split moment?

Then I was reminded of last wk adult ess Ps Jeff mention about God's creation. How God created us marvelously and wonderfully..

New Living Translation (NLT) Psalm 139:13-16

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

and Ps Jeff preach again during today tertiary svc.. They kept me thinking deeper.. No matter what is happening, it is not an accident, God dun create Ashley accidentally nor take away her life accidentally. We need to trust his sovereign lordship even though sometimes thing doesn't make sense when we use our finite human mind to think.

New Living Translation (NLT) Isaiah 55:9

For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

I believe He is there witnessing and healing their broken hearts...

I start to appreciate God's given life more. Only one life to live.. Live to the fullest.

Team ministry

2007-07-27T03:29:00.001+08:00

Learnings from Team Captains' Course

This is my first ever longest course that I ever attended in church and this course covers 12 weeks long. Some people asked me why I am there attending this course as they see me as just pastoral leader. Well.. I am a secret agent of the mission. Hee... I serve in mission ministry which is the equipping ministry! (haha.. i only know I am serving in mission however its only through the recent lesson I got to know mission in under equipping ministry)

So far I have attended the 4th lesson. Each time I attend the course, I unlearn and learn new things. Some of the issues stretched my thoughts to think how the church works between pastoral and ministry. How the Kingdom of God can be extended greatly when the ministry leaders understand about Lateral leadership.

In my recent lesson, I learnt about leadership.

" A leader is one who sees more than others see, who sees further than others see, and who sees before others do. " Leroy Eims

Leaders who navigate do even more than control the direction in which they and their people travel. They see the whole trip in their mins before they leave the dock. they have a vision for their destination, they understand what it will take to get there, they know who they will need on the team to be successful, and they recognise the obstacles long before they appear on the horizon.

God gave Abraham clear directions to go for the land of Canaan (Genesis 12:4-5). Leaders with vision know where God wants to lead the people. Leaders must set clear direction, so that members will not be like sheep wandering aimlessly around but know which direction they are heading for.

I learnt about both pastoral and ministry leaders play very important role in extending Kingdom of God. Although pastoral is the main core business, ministry is equally important as it forms the infrastructure to sustain and expand the church. Just like in Singapore, without the government and ministers, a strong infrastructure and system within the Singapore, Singapore would not be able to go that far and reap in the economic growth. Singapore will forever be a village and not see progression in nation.

In this leadership lesson I learnt about ministry team leader are lateral leader who are creative because our God is a creative God. We would always think of new ways and do new things.

Team Ministry develops and provides resources and services for the local church by influencing and collaborating across the church organisation to help achieve the Great Commission.

Lateral leadership is leading from the side, influencing across boundaries and getting things done when you are not in-charge.

Heartfelt Thanks to my mentors

2007-07-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

Heartfelt Thanks to my mentors

On Saturday morning I received an sms from my first follow upper - Wanqi who is now serving in adult group. She mentioned that she felt encouraged seeing me testifying about my life and mission trip to Nepal during the last Sunday service. She shared that I have grown a lot and encouraged me to stay focus and strong in my journey with Him.

This brought me to think about all my past shepherds who had helped me to grow. I replied her with heartfelt gratitude and told her that without the follow upper and mentors, I wouldn't have been who I am. I see how God works through my leaders. I thanked them for helping me to grow and never give up on me when my faith wavered at times. Indeed God is always faithful and loving, He placed different people and situation in my life to help me to grow.

Recently I told Jas during the meet up that this year is a great moulding for me. There are loads of challenges and failures faced.. yet God never fails to give me chances again and again.. I shared that there are times I prayed to God and told him that I would like to be a little mouse and hide at one corner.. but prayer in this way doesn't work.. God gives me bigger task and I can't help except to depend on him more. I remembered I struggled to share testimony on that Sunday services.. It's my first time testifying in Sun congregations.. I was so nervous and I felt so so small and lost as there were many unfamiliar faces.. However the moment I am on stage, confidence and joy filled my heart as I shared.. and when I left the stage.. I was amazed by how God used me. Phew... it's over yeah!

2 Tim 1:7 (NIV) " For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. "

2 Tim 1:7 (Amplified) "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control."

Progressing little by little each day..

A Grateful Heart

2007-06-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

This week was rather a hectic week for me. My schedule were packed and running here and there around sg.. Haha... I realise that if I won't know God I may just know about Hougang and Hougang only..

Had a great time in the ERA real estate training. Indeed property market is booming.. The demand is increasing and even the news stated that property hasn't reach its peak yet. There are still more to come.

As compared a few years ago.. the market was really different. In economy sector, property and construction were slow moving and a lot of people were downgrading their properties. However beginning of this year, the situation changed totally. It's booming and now it's buyers' market.

During the training, my brain was stretched as I realise that whatever I'd learnt has come into real practice. There's loads of stuff to be installed into my brain again. It's really amazing how SG government rule the land.. every single tiny section of land is measured and sg land don't just happen to be like that. There's master plan and everything we see now has already been planned long ago. Due to limited land, buildings are built higher and higher.. even air space has high charges too.. hee.. it's amazing to see how sg land was greatly utilised. So those who wanna buy a penthouse hahha... think twice and calculate the cost of air space..

Not only did I attend the training, evening time I joined the DI evo camp! I remembered the first night i joined... I was greatly moved by the DIans... I felt so loved by them. Thanks for your warmth welcome and 'sabo' on me hehe. We also had a surprise farewell for Meihua and that night most of the people cried as they affirmed her.. behind the tears are great appreciation to their beloved leader. Indeed Meihua has really led the team well with simple heart and passion for God and people. She never fails to lend a hand to those who are in need, she never fails to lend her ear to those who open their lives. She is more than just an "auntie" --- as what Dians called her " Auntie meihua", she is a role model to the DIans too.. one who follow after Christ with a willing and humble heart. Salute to you sister! Farewell to Meihua and welcome her to TSPT (tertiary service planning team). I'm glad that she can be able to maximise the giftings that God has deposited in her to do even greater things. I believe that the TSPT team will bring the service to another new level of breakthrough. Excited to see tertiary moving into a new ground!

Personally I felt floodgate of challenges are coming ahead. I prayed that God will add in strength, courage and wisdom... indeed I can never give enough thanks to Him. God is indeed awesome and gracious. It's beyond description of how wonderful He is.. Thanks Jesus for being my Lord and Saviour. The Lord of my life.. help me to understand you more and more.. a breakthrough in understanding you. learn to lean on you more... sometimes I felt like a mouse.. like what Lalita said.. God mould me to be a lion! mouse to lion? Hard to imagine but nothing cannot be done. Ok ok moulding in process.

Testimony on Mission Trip to Nepal

2007-06-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

Testimony on Mission Trip to Nepal

testimony shared on sunday services---

3 weeks ago, Ps Jasmine and myself went on a mission trip to Kathmandu, capital of Nepal. A Hope church Kathmandu was started last year by a Nepalese who was trained in Hope KL. Our trip objective was to visit the church and also to encourage Lalita who was Nepalese born and grown in Singapore all these years. She has decided to return to Kathmandu to start a student ministry.

This mission trip to Nepal was an eye-opener for me. I had experienced many new things and cultural shock for 1st time. Unlike Singapore, the food, water and air quality in Nepal was not something I could adapt to immediately. Kathmandu city was very polluted and dusty. When we were on the bus we could literally see whole bus turn cloudy and sandy. There are no traffic rules and pedestrian walkways, you can see cows, buffaloes, chickens, dogs around and it’s always a challenge for us to cross the road as the car would not stop for you.

By 8pm at night, you wouldn’t see girls on the street as it was dangerous. There are many times when electricity supply will be cut off in the entire Kathmandu. We usually returned late, and would have to walk through dark lanes. I remembered one late night while walking on the dark lanes, Jasmine actually took out a pen as a mean for self defence – just in case if we are assaulted.

In our trip, we visited the Hope Kathmandu service which was held in a small dark room with no window and no fan and 40 over believers and visitors squeezing inside, praising and worshipping God. The people did not complain at all, instead they welcome and serve one another joyfully.

We went to Tribhuvan uni in Kathmandu and met a pre-believer named Sudip. We shared the Gospel with him under a tree and after clearing his doubts, he received Christ. We also prayed for him. He has his heart on the right side and this caused pain when he made certain movements.

And the next day when we attended the festival of praise, Sudip. brought along a few of his friends and one of the friends accepted Jesus. Excitingly we followed up on them together with Laliha.

Another interesting thing was we held our care group gathering on the roof top of the unfinished building. The pre-believing Nepalese friends really enjoyed the games, fellowship and dance. We had so much fun on that day and the new believers expressed that they felt loved and also wanted to know Jesus more.

In this trip 2 lessons learnt:

1. adaptability
Anyone can live and stay in new country as it depends on how fast we adapt. Actually on the 5th day of our mission trip, we started to get used to the air, culture and the environment. I learn to adjust my expectation, not to compare with Singapore and get into the life of Nepal. In fact many thought that I was actually a Nepalese by my look and when I spoke in Nepali.

2. Think global and act locally. I realised that whatever I am doing here in the local church eg. Outreaching and mentoring, and doing my best in my studies and job, are part of what a global Christian is doing. We serve with an end in mind to glorify Jesus.

We are thrilled that our Hope Church Singapore student group can support an overseas pioneering church. We are planning to make another mission trip in next quarter to support Lailta in her student pioneering in Kathmandu.
We covet your prayers and support for Hope Kathmandu and the student ministry.

On hold for my sharing about Nepal

2007-06-15T09:00:00.000+08:00

On hold for my sharing about NepaL Trip

View of Kathmandu from airplane

Matthew CG at roof top with Prakash, Hope Msia team, New believers and their friends!

Hee... on hold for the sharing of my Nepal trip cos more happening things are coming up next week! Look out for the Mission Service in youth, tertiary and adult services! just imagine i share everything here then i got nothing to share in service le haha! So keep it first ...

Ever since I came back from Nepal, I have been busy with the upcoming mission service. Thanks to the team who help me in editing the long long long video clips and loads of pictures! And i have to handle loads of stuffs hee and meet many people. However I consider this as a joy as I enjoy doing it!

Jasmine and I brought back more than just video clips and pictures but mangoes!!! We bought 16 kg of mangoes in total! Came back with increased faith, burden for nations, greater commitment to local church and stronger leanne! Not that I have build strong physical muscles but strong spiritual muscles and mission mind!

We have to build our local ministry strong in order to bring blessing to other countries. Whatever we do here will make great impact to many nations. So even when we are outreaching, shepherding sheep, holding Cg and dmm etc.. We are in the process of extending God's Kingdom!

Lalita was one of the success stories. She grew up in Singapore but hold Nepal IC because her father who is a Nepalese worked as Gukurs in Singapore for 17 years. 3 years ago, Lalita was brought by her good friend, Manta to church. She received Christ and start her journey with God. She went through thick and thin as a CL and serve actively in Local church. She brought back strong foundation and conviction to Nepal to make a difference there. God will back her up. God will rebuild Nepal just like how God use Nehemiah to rally the people to rebuild the wall in Jerusalem. Let's continue to keep Nepal, Prakash- Key leader in Nepal and Lalita- student ministry leader in prayer regularly.

Do you know about Nepal?

2007-06-15T02:02:00.000+08:00

Do you know about Nepal?

1. Kathmandu is the capital of Nepal. Mount Everest and Himalayas are in Nepal.

2. During Summer, they have longer day time and shorter night time. Best period to visit Nepal will be Sept-Nov Autumn Season!

3. The Nepalese usually wake up at 5am to have breakfast and Lunch at 9am, Tea break at 2 or 3pm and Dinner at 8pm. (Singapore time is earlier than Nepal by 2hr 15min. which means.. 8pm having dinner is our supper time at 10.15pm!)

4. Nepal is popular for trekking and adventurous activities like water rafting and mountain climbing. (but not in Kathmandu... Kathmandu is more for shopping)

5. Air in Kathmandu is really very polluted so do wear a mask if you have breathing problem.

6. Summer time is also mango season, you can find mango seller everywhere. Be drown by the mango juice and fruit!

7. 1 Sing dollar = 41 Nepal rupees (means you can buy 2 .5kg of mangoes from wholesaler) --- heee.. that's why jasmine and I bought a carton 16-18kg of mangoes.

8. Guys don't be shocked or stumbled if a guy hold your hands or hug you or cling unto you. It shows that they treat you as very good friend or buddy.

9. Those who have driving license: try not to drive in Nepal. They don't have traffic rules and they are used to horn as a signal for turning left/right and continuously to alert the pedestrian.

10. You will be amazed to see goats, cows, buffaloes, dogs, chickens everywhere even in the middle of the road or among the crowds.

11. When a cow is in the middle of the road shitting or resting, the motorists will have to give way to the cow.

12. A must-go place to Nepal is Pokhara--- you can see very beautiful sunrise, sunset and view Mount Everest afar!

More interesting things coming up!

Nepal Mission Trip Day 3 ( 3 June)

2007-06-14T09:53:00.000+08:00

Nepal Mission Trip Day 3 ( 3 June)

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We woke up early in morning and went to Samakoshi for coreteam training. Hot Peng (Hope Msia leader) and Jasmine taught the coreteam about the Vision and Philosophy of Hope Church. It was like a refreshing course for me too!

We had lunch together with the Hope Msia team and the Nepal coreteam. Something to take note is that nepalese take rice for almost all their meals and they can't live without rice. They will feel weak with just eating noodles. The host will also keep track of you food and will keep adding unto you rice and veg if you don't stop them. That's why some of the Hope Msia bro and sis put on weight within a few days.

After the lunch we met up with some college contacts brought by Sudip our new believer and we went for the summer praise festival organised by some churches and a Singaporean. We witnessed one convert after the P&W event!His name is Uddaba brought by our new believer Sudip!Starbursting effects!

God's blessing upon Nepal shall prevail!

Nepal Mission Trip Day 4 ( 4 June)

2007-06-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

Nepal Mission Trip Day 4 ( 4 June)-- Shopping in Thamel, Kathmandu

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Finally we get to shop in Thamel, Kathmandu-- A famous tourist attraction place! It's like orchard road to us where there are many tourist and shops selling souvenirs. However during summer it's the off peak season for tourist as the weather is really bad during summer season.

We spent the whole afternoon shopping and eating. Jasmine and I were amazed by Manta's and Lalita's bargaining power. Everywhere thing we bought, we bargained. And that's the thrill for both girls.. I remembered at the night market, Jasmine wanted to buy shawls as gifts and the 2 girls just bargained til the 3 stall owners just gazed at them with amazement of their power.

The challenging part would be going home. Usually we get quite worried when night falls as the whole street would turn very dark and we have to depend on the car lights. By 8pm you won't get to see girls on street. We felt so unsafe that at one point jasmine actually took out a pen as weapon for self defence as we walk along the dark path to Lolli's house. Again that was the night we experienced electricity being cut off due to stormy weather and we had candlelight dinner at Lolli's house. We also had a great catch up with her sister in law and also her parents and cousins. It's when in the dark and there's no activity going on that we took time to catch up with one another. Another warm fellowship under the candlelight.

Nepal Mission Trip Day 2 ( 2 June)

2007-06-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

Nepal Mission Trip Day 2 ( 2 June)

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We woke up early to attend the Hope Nepal service... Here comes my first time.. the journey to the service venue was long. We were trapped in the traffic jam and the whole stretch of road was filled with dust and sand.. even in the bus you have to cover your nose and mouth.. thats why most of the time on bus i will choose to keep quiet, prevent dust and sand getting into my mouth. The air was polluted and on the road you could see cows, dogs, cars everywhere. There's no traffic rules. Sometimes you could see cows or buffaloes in the middle of the road and the drivers have to give way to them. The traffic jam in Kathmandu was really bad. After some days spent in Nepal we got used to the 'no traffic rules' and we force your way through as motorists wont give way. In Nepal, there are different mode of public transports-- Bus, Microvan and Tempuru (tutu). It's amazing to see how they pack the passengers.. you can also sit on top of the bus if you cant get in or even hang on to the tutu if its real packed.. I was amazed by how flexible the people can be.

The service was great! Even though the place was dark and small, everyone have to squeeze in and there's no fan nor aircon, the people still enjoy praise and worship God. It was also my very first time co-preaching with jasmine in service and with Lalita and a bro as our translator. We witnessed one convert on that day too after the service. We had our lunch near the church place after service. It's a wonderful fellowship together with the nepalese and also Hope Msia team.

After the hearty lunch, we met up Sudip (pre-believer friend) and went to Tribuvan university together with Hope Msia team. The trip was long.. and at one moment... you could simply see sand clouded the bus! we stucked in the long jam and we felt like in microwave due to the rising temperature. We took 1.5hrs to reach the TU. and we took 30min to walk to TU.

TU is a very unique place. you could see cows roaming around. As it was school holidays we didnt get to see many students around. we had a great time visiting TU and taking pictures! Before we left TU, we actually had opportunity to share Christ with Sudip under a big tree. Some of us were praying and interceding for him while some shared Christ with him. It's indeed a team work.. Initially he insist that he need more time to know about Jesus and would like to take 2 years long to consider. However as the sharing went on, he finally received Jesus! 1 cross the line! It was a fruitful day!

Nepal Mission Trip Day 1 (1st June)

2007-06-12T15:48:00.000+08:00

Nepal Mission Trip Day 1 (1st June)

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After postponing the Mission trip to nepal twice.. finally confirmed our trip to Nepal, Kathmandu on 1-8 June. I can see God's blessing upon Nepal as day goes by...

This mission trip to Nepal was an eye-opener to me. I had experienced many things for the very first time. The list goes on and on, every day in nepal was a new experience for me.

First time travalling so far and first time travel together with jasmine alone. We took Thai Airlines and transit in Bangkok to go Nepal. The whole journey took us around 5 hours long. The moment we touched down Kathmandu Airport, we started to take pictures. The airport is indeed small and simple. Many tourists come for the treking purposes. We met 2 taiwanese who actually came here for social work.

When we met up with lalita at the airport, we got to know that there was road block for the whole day due to some strike that happened and certain clan wanna take control by implementing road block to gain power. Due to the road block, Lolli had to walk with her 2 cousins for nearly 2 hours all the way from her house to fetch us at the airport. There was one incident that we almost conned by a taxi driver when he demanded 1500 rps (nepal rupees) to drive us from airport to Lolli's house, whereby the actual price was actually around 250-500 rps. We ended up taking another cab that offered us 700rps. And we had to go through narrow lanes and bumpy areas to reach her house.

I was greatly moved by Lolli's family warm welcome to us. They had shown great hospitality to us, ensuring that we can adapt well to the environment, food and water in Nepal. Lolli brought us for a short walk around her place and we took some good pictures! The best view was from her house roof top. I could see the whole kathmandu city as her house was situated on higher ground level. It was my first time to experience darkness for a long night around 2-3 hours due to electricity being cut off. Every Friday and Saturday, different part of Kathmandu will have their electricity being cut off. This is for the sake of saving electricity consumption. thats interesting! So we had fellowship in the darkness with mosquitoes that night!

Reflection: Learning cross culture is interesting, provided you are prepared to learn and go extra mile. Try new things, pick up new language and accept their culture differences. :) It's the starting for this mission trip.

Nepal Mission Trip

2007-06-09T04:27:00.000+08:00

Finally reached my home, the moment I stepped into the house I just cant stop sharing my experiences with my brothers. This trip to Nepal was really an eye-opner for me. I experienced many new things for the first time and also had some personal breakthrough in overcoming my fears.

I'd learnt about cross cultural, adjust to fit the environment rather then waiting for the environment to change and suits your needs. Learn to speak their nepali language, understand their cultures, taste their food and even adjust to their air and water. Initially I do not understand why lolli mentioned about adjusting to the air, transport, food and water.. until I experience it myself and understand that its totally different from living in Singapore.

I learned to be more adaptable and also more firm in relating to different people. You have to be very firm and alert no matter is it crossing the road, taking transport or purchasing things.

After being in church for so long, we always talk about church planting, mission, being a global Christian... as I start to involved in this nepal mission, i realised that starting a church is indeed not easy. To start and to attend a church is really different. There are many things that you need to think about from searching of the venues for service and caregroups to handling external oppositions by others, from reaching out to the non-believers to discipling the believers. It takes a lot of willing heart, faith, obedience and perseverence to do so. I truly admire Prakash in making a decision to lead Hope Nepal and Lalita in leading the student ministry in Hope Nepal.

There are many people in Nepal who long to leave their country to seek for better job opportunities and future. Yet Prakash and Lalita choose to go back to settle down in nepal to make a difference. I believe that God's blessing will be greatly showered upon them as they continue to extend the Kingdom of God.

Therefore buildign a strong local church andministry is important so that we can bless many countries by sending the church planters over. thats all about being a global Christian.

This is My Home

2007-05-23T00:24:00.001+08:00

This is My Home

Just came back from shepherding... indeed it was a great time spent. Although initially things didn't go very well.. but we know that our heart is to extend His kingdom. No matter how many times we quarrel, we will still patch up with each other. Through open heart sharing, get to understand my sheep more.

I appreciate my sheep to help me grow. In fact its through relating with them i discover my weakness... and understand that I need to grow more. God has humbled me a lot.. Indeed He has always been guiding me and putting me in different circumstances to grow. His presence of love never leave me.

Still remembered what Ps Prakich shared about why he never thought of leaving church or backslide. "I know that this is my family. I wouldn't want to leave my family. Just like you never leave your biological family..."

Each of us belong to a biological family.. I belong to Ng Family and I will never resign from my family no matter what is happening. Just like Hope Church.. This is my Spiritual family. My sheep, shepherd and r&dmm team are my immediate family members. We are not finding a perfect church, we are finding a place where we can share our heart openly, learn from one another and spur one another to grow in the Lord.

When I was in Jasmine's house last Sat night, after talking to jasmine about discipleship and new challenges, I couldn't sleep.. i was thinking, I have only one life. I have to entrust this one life to the Maker of my life and not risk it on my own. Only God knows what is going through in my life, what is good and bad for me. God is a giver of all good gifts. The route in God's plan is simple and greatly blessed if we follow Him closely, yet sometimes we take lots of detour in our life..

I witness some people take alternative route and end up not coming back. Some people continue to detour and drift further away from the Maker, while some take detour but realise the road ain't heading right way thus come back to the main road again and finish this journey. Probably it will take a longer time to reach the destination, but better than not reaching.
Right now I am in this exciting stage of driving on the main road. I wanna partnership with God in this journey more.

Ps Prakich mentioned one thing over the rdmm meeting which touched my heart.. " Make sure the people who are with us will remain til the end.."

Let's make sure we end the race together. :)

Nightmare came true in Service Leading

2007-05-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

Nightmare came true in Service Leading

My nightmare turn out to be real when I realised that my service leading script was lost in my mailing file!!! I remembered I attached and emailed to my accounts. However to my horror, when I reached the MM room intending to print my script... I realised I couldn't find my file in my 2 email accounts that I usually send to. I used to dream that I will lost my script just before service started and it turn out to be true!

I began to panic.. and I just went to hide in the 6th floor toilet and prayed.. then intending to re-write another holy communion script again.. however.. I just find that the article that I had read and intended to share was the one that was meaningful for the holy communion. I prayed to God to give me wisdom to be able to search the article again from the website I visited.

I went back to the mm room again.. and searched from the website.. oh dear... I left 15 mins more before service start! I remembered that day I prepared the holy com script.. I was reading through countless of articles.. so which one?? which one ?? I prayed to God again. And just as I search.. and kept turning to wrong pages.. I told God.. last try. God you must help me. To my amazement, I clicked unto one article and the exact passage within the 2 pages of scripture appeared!That's the part! Thank God!

Actually this passage really touched my heart a lot. it's really meaningful and reflected deeper why I'm leading or taking holy communion.

Week in and out.. we seems able to recite the whole program flow of the service. P&W, Holy Com, Welcome, Announcement, Offering and so on... sometimes we may just attend and go through the program without letting God renewed us or touch our heart.

I prayed to God that day of preparation that I don't want to take it as a routine of sharing.. it's not a duty.. Holy Com must be something that is always afresh.. we want to remember.. We look forward to this time... We understand holy communion better.. God touches our heart..

Thus this passage help me to understand God's amazing love for us:

God knows that believers forget important matters easily and so He designed this supper to help each believer remember and worship Him.

In the olden days, when a sailing vessel crept around the world, it had to keep away from the shore. A linesman would stand on the bow of the ship and cast a weighted line into the sea. He would report his findings on how deep or how shallow the water was beneath the keel. The best word was: “No bottom with this line.” Such is the love of Christ: “No bottom.” All our sounding lines are far too short to measure the depths to which His love was willing to go for us.

WE NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH ONE LOVES UNTIL WE KNOW HOW MUCH ONE IS WILLING TO ENDURE AND SUFFER FOR US; AND IT IS THE SUFFERING THAT MEASURES LOVE.

The measure of Christ’s love is seen in the suffering of Calvary. We contemplate the cross the whole being of Christ sacrificial love. His heart of love bleeds in to cleanse us; His hands of love are wounded to heal us; His feet of love are nailed to release us; His side of love is pierced to assure us; His body of love is stripped to clothe us; His lips of love are parched to bless us; His cross of love is shameful to enrich us, and His love is awesome.

The next time when we take our holy communion. Let's come with a renewed heart attitude to remember and celebrate the victory we have in Christ. :)

Be Real to Him

2007-05-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

Be Real To Him
My recent QT is on the book of Proverbs. Nowadays, I really enjoy the time to discover God's word more. Not that I didnt do it in the past, but I guess there's some breakthrough within me. My QT is like opening a gift box and expect surprises from giver. Surprises that involve words of wisdom, knowledge, warning, affirmation and correction etc. Proverbs help me to understand how to attain wisdom and discipline and a prudent life. How to do what is right and just and fair in short, to apply divine wisdom to daily life and to learn moral instruction from the scriptures.

Recently, I really felt very stressed and tensed up thus affect my physical, spiritual and emotion. I can't get to sleep well and have to depend on sleeping pills at times. Many thoughts, concerns, questions and "what if" come into my mind just as when I am about to sleep. And that keeps me awake throughout the night and I can sense the blood flowing intensely into my brain and feel the motion of the brain reacted actively within.

Recently, I learnt great lesson from Ps Christie's preaching. Every word and phrase kept ringing in my heart, I responded personally to God that night... I want to be more honest to God with my feelings and thoughts, no point trying to act strong or keep anything from God with the mentality of afraid to trouble him or think that it's wrong to have such feelings or thoughts.. oh God.. I think you must be smiling at me.. why I react in such a funny way to you.. Personally I had a break through! That night onwards... I started to share more to God... Really open up my heart to share with him my fear, regrets, hurts, worries and thanksgiving. Just a senstence. " Be real to Him."

I think God must have been there waiting and saying, " my dear, finally you are more open and honest to me.. I wasnt stumbled nor amazed that you are weak.. you need help, you need love, you need guidance and wisdom etc ..."

As I read the chapters in proverbs daily, I gain great insights and realise that there are really many things for me to learn, unlearn and apply. Sometimes I felt regreted why didn't obey God, why i didnt follow Him closely, Why I didn't do well in this and that and Why I didnt grow much etc.. it's too late... yet He comforted me that He will provide a way and I am renewed in Christ when I repent. I stay in no condemnation from Him. It takes me soemtimes to understand about this " God has cancel my past"... God is really awesome. Beyond any description.

Honestly speaking...What keeps me going on? It is You, Father. You have never gave up on me. It is your Agape Love that keeps me going. :) I am truly amazed by You.

Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
How You love me...

A night stay at Jas' Place

2007-04-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

A Night Stay @ Jas' Place & My thoughts
After the huddle meeting, I went to Jasmine's house to stay over. Another huddle night with Lalita and Lennon. We had a great time praying for Nepal and also Lalita. A great time to exercise words of prophesy. Indeed as we pray, we also get refreshed and charged.

"Lolli, be strong and courageous! God is going to use you mightily to glorify his Name through your life. Impact many generations and seeing the nation bow before the Lord. Worshipping the Lord. Seeing many who come and leave be impacted and bring this seed into many new lands. God cares for you. Dearly. "

It's really amazing to see how God moved in our lives. It's really a great pleasure to be able to serve in a place where we can share one another's burden and load. Encouraging and spur one another to grow. There are indeed many challenges coming ahead.. yet it is great to know that we arent moving alone. We have A Big Daddy watching over us.

Father, help me to know you more, love you more, grow in you more...
I know you have a plan for me, I pray that I will be obedient and faithful to follow
Thanks for always forgiving me and guide me patiently
Helping me to walk in your way
No matter how many times I fail
You are there to pick me up
This unconditional love and promise
I greatly treasure
You are the anchor to my soul

Suddenly thought of this song... lyrics goes like this
' At the cross I bow my knees
where your blood was shed for me
there's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
what can separate me now

You tore the veil
You made the way
when You say that it is done'

This is the greatest Love. Love that overcomes all fears. I shall trust in You. Thank you Jesus.

18 ways to motivate yourself for ministry

2007-04-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

18 ways to motivate yourself for ministry
by Rick Warren

Motivation is contagious. I never try to motivate other people. I only worry about motivating myself. When I’m motivated, I know others will catch my enthusiasm. This is true in any area of ministry. Your duty as a church leader is not necessarily to motivate others. But if you stay motivated, those you lead will catch your enthusiasm.

Paul tells us in 1 Corinthians 15:58b to: “Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.” (NIV) I have to admit there have been times in my life I have not given myself fully to the work of the Lord. But our goal is that every time we preach a sermon, every meeting we lead, every counseling session we are in, that we are giving ourselves fully to that task. We know that nothing we do for the Lord is ever in vain – no matter what it is.

Here are 9 suggestions about how to stay motivated based on how I motivate myself. Next week I’ll share another nine. There isn’t anything deep in these – but they’ve helped me and I think they can help you.

1. Put your plans on paper. Write out what you want to accomplish. Dawson Trotman said, “Thoughts disentangle themselves when they pass through the lips and the fingertips.” If I can say it and I can write it down, then it’s clear. If I haven’t written it down, then it’s vague.

Many of us live with a vague fear – or anxiety – that we won’t get everything accomplished that we need to. Just putting what you have to do down on paper will often relieve your mind and allow you to focus on your task.

2. Break big tasks into small steps.

When I know I have a task coming up, I always write down the specific steps I need to take before the project is done. When I’m preparing a sermon, I ask myself, “What all do I have to do to finish the sermon?” Then I write down all of the associated tasks, such as collecting the verses, studying the verses, looking for illustrations, thinking through quotes, and organizing the presentation. Sermons don’t just fall out of your brain automatically. We all go through specific steps as we’re doing it. Just learn to isolate those steps.

3. Decide where you want to start.

After you’ve broken down the task into steps, ask yourself what needs to be done first. For example, if you’re preparing a sermon, what’s the very first thing you have to do? Discover your topic? Pray? You need to figure out where to start.

4. Establish check points to track your progress.

Give yourself deadlines for each of the tasks needed to finish the project.

5. Start on the task whether you feel like it or not.

Be honest with yourself. Usually when we say we can’t do something we simply mean we don’t want to do it. Sometimes you’ve got to get tough. Most of the people who succeed in this world are those who don’t feel like doing what they’re doing. Successful people have developed the habit of doing things unsuccessful people don’t feel like doing.

6. Remind yourself of the benefits of completing the task.

A lot of times I do this when I’m preparing a message. I’ve had a real long week, and my mind just isn’t there. I ask myself, “What is this going to accomplish?” Jesus did this. The Bible says in Hebrews, that Jesus endured the cross because he looked to the joy beyond it.

Those of us in ministry don’t often see the thrill of what we’re doing. There’s a lot that seems mundane at times. But we do it because of the results. God is going to change lives through us. That gets us motivated!

7. Do a small part right now.

Get started! Don’t stall. I play a game with myself all the time called The Five-Minute Game. When I have a big topic or task I need to do, I just say, “I don’t want to do this, but I’ll give it five minutes.” I sit down and after I get going in it, it’s not that big of a deal.

8. Be optimistic.

Optimism creates energy. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve come into church and didn’t think I could make it through what I had to do. But I walk in saying, “This is a snap! In Christ. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Optimism can make all the difference in the world.

9. Establish an action environment.

Create a place in your office or house where you can get all of your tools together for your task. If you’re preparing a sermon, find a place to get your Bible and your study aids all within reach. You need an environment where you can focus on the task at hand. I clear everything off the desk when I’m going to study because I don’t want to focus on anything else.

Some of you use your desks as file cabinets. And you say you’re doing it so that you won’t forget what's there. That’s the problem! You don’t forget those things. You sit down to prepare a sermon and you see your phone list or a book you’ve wanted to read and all of a sudden you’ve drifted off task.

Success comes from focusing on one thing at a time. Clear off your desk. Make a to-do list so you won’t forget what you’ve taken off of your desk. Put a tickler file on your desk of stuff you need to look at every day. Then, whenever you pull it out and look through it, always put it back. But whatever you do, don’t use your desk as a filing cabinet. It diffuses your concentration, and makes it tough to focus on the task on hand.

10. Avoid places or situations that might cause you to get sidetracked.

That’s why I don’t do any of my sermon preparation at the office. The walls are real thin in there. I can hear everybody having a good time outside, and I’m a party animal. I want to have fun! I don’t want to sit and study. I want to be out there with people. So I have to pick a different place to study to keep myself from having a great time with all these people I love at the office. And they appreciate it too! Then they get their work done.

11. Take advantage of your peak energy times.

Some of you are morning people. Some of you are night people. We all have certain points during the day where we are more effective, have more energy, and are more alert. The only people who are at their best all the time are mediocre people. You need to know when your body clock is geared toward maximum performance. You never want to waste maximum performance on secondary tasks. If your peak time is 10 to 12 in the morning, don’t read your mail then. Save those kinds of tasks for other not-so-peak times of the day.

12. Use the stimulation of good news to do extra work.

I do this all the time. Whenever I hear good news, it’s like God gives me a shot of adrenaline. All of a sudden, I’ve got a little extra bounce in my step. I try to channel that into ministry.
Perfectionism produces procrastination.”

13. Recognize when indecision is causing inertia.

Often what we think of as procrastination is really indecision. As pastors this is a big problem. Every week, we have to figure out what we’re going to preach on next. Some pastors spend two or three days worrying about that. I like preaching a series. I only have to make that decision six or seven times a year! Then I can spend all of that energy I would have spent on deciding what to preach on figuring out what God wants to say through the messages. This works for other ministry tasks as well. Try to shorten the time you spend making decisions. Make a decision and go for it. Don’t waste time on indecision.

14. Use visible reminders.

I use Post-It Notes to remind me of what I need to do. I not only post reminders of my to-do list, but I also post some of my favorite anti-procrastination slogans, such as: “do the worst first,” “be a doer not a dawdler,” and “in just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday.” These help remind me of the cost of procrastination!

15. Give yourself the right to make mistakes.

I give myself the right to make mistakes on any project that I’m doing. Don’t demand perfection. Perfectionism produces procrastination. Perfectionism paralyzes us. We say, “If it's not perfect, it’s not worth doing.” That’s just wrong. If it’s worth doing, do it – whether you do it perfectly or not. Very little in this world is done perfectly.

16. Don’t set goals you can’t reach.

You won’t be motivated by goals you can’t reach.

17. Enlist a partner.

If you’ve got a big task to do, always get a partner. The Bible says in Ecclesiastes 4:9, “Two are better off than one, because together they can work more effectively.” (TEV) If you’re working on a big task alone, you’ll probably procrastinate. But if you’ve got somebody else working with you, you’re more likely to get it done.

18. Read books that increase your skills.

If I find myself having a hard time being motivated in an area of ministry that I’m called to do, I just get a book on it. If you have a hard time recruiting volunteers in your church, read a book on recruitment. If you’re having a hard time preparing sermons, find a book on the topic. If you’re having a hard time making leadership decisions, get a book on leadership.
Until next week,

--- By Rick Warren

Easter Service -- Masterpiece--

2007-04-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

Easter Service 2007-- Masterpiece--

Thanks to Ps jeff for sharing with us the pictures through his blog.

http://www.jeffchong.blogspot.com/

In the right hands, broken pieces of glass creates stained glass masterpieces that leave us in awe of such beauty. In the hands of God, we are transformed by his amazing love so that we can become a new creation. Jesus is the answer to our life.

Thanks to the Easter team for the hardwork. Indeed this easter service was awesome!

Daddy Why?- Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy.
He said I’d finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes

So I said Daddy why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows
Daddy please can’t you do something?
He looks as if he’s going to cry
You said he is stronger than all of those guys-Daddy please tell me why,
why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy, boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering if there was something that he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out, I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from a cross:

And it said : Father why are they screaming.
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes??
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows
Father please can’t you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size, Father remind me why,
why does everyone want me to die.
When will I understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming.
I’m watching the face of the enemy beaming
but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me more than you know
But this dark hour I must do nothing.
I’ve heard your unbearable cry—the power in your blood destroys all the lies,
soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes.

Look there below see the child trembling by her father’s side.
Now I can tell you why, she is why you must die.

Thank You for the Cross

2007-04-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

Thank You For The Cross

After attending the Easter service--- Masterpiece--, I was greatly touched by the message and the song "Daddy Why". Greatly impressed by the hope production for that simple animation. It illustrated the song very well. Even some of my pre-believing friends were touched by the whole song presentation and the service. Glad that some of them responded in knowing Jesus and some even re-dedicate their life to God.

As I was returning home... I thanked God for what he has done in my life. Thank God for His unfailing love and faithfulness. Truly treasure this relationship I have with Him. He heard my prayer.. He heard my heartcry.. He comforted me.. His presence never leave me. Such intimacy is greatly treasured.

I thanked God for giving me great opportunities to grow and mature in Him. Thank God for putting me to serve in NYP and RP. He has also given me great friends to help me and guide me through this path, thus making this journey meaniningful. His love endures forever, his love never cease. His unconditional love is the reason why I live. :) Wonderful.

Thank You for the Cross.

Prophesy by Peter Truong

2007-03-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

Prophesy by Peter Truong
On 25th March 2007, all tertiary leaders were being prophesied by Peter Truong. Here's his prophesy over me:

"Encouraging you that as you live for God and His glory. He's very pleased with you, like the woman who poured the jar of fragrance. As you pour out your life to God more and more, you will be acknowledged and remembered, like the history and leave a legacy and w mark behind in the lives of people. Leave a mark of God's mercy, compassion to people. You are like mirror of God to people, reflector of Christ to people and many will be blessed by you.
2 Cor5:20 Be ambassador of Christ."

New International Version (NIV)
2 Corinthians 5:20:20
We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God.

New Living Translation (NLT)
2 Corinthians 5:20:20
So we are Christ’s ambassadors; God is making his appeal through us. We speak for Christ when we plead, “Come back to God!”

The Message (MSG)
2 Corinthians 5:20:16 -20
Because of this decision we don't evaluate people by what they have or how they look. We looked at the Messiah that way once and got it all wrong, as you know. We certainly don't look at him that way anymore. Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between us and him, and then called us to settle our relationships with each other. God put the world square with himself through the Messiah, giving the world a fresh start by offering forgiveness of sins. God has given us the task of telling everyone what he is doing. We're Christ's representatives. God uses us to persuade men and women to drop their differences and enter into God's work of making things right between them. We're speaking for Christ himself now: Become friends with God; he's already a friend with you.

Generation Next Camp 2007- A Growing Generation.Binary Fission.

2007-03-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

Generation Next Camp 2007- A Growing Generation.Binary Fission.

Indeed it was a fantastic camp! God is moving in everyone's heart. Received empowerment by the holy spirit. Our hearts are stirred. Heart renewed. Mind refreshed. Spirit recharged. Thanks for Meihua and the camp committees in running this camp. Camp had ended with deeper love for God and man, greater unity and clearer vision! Moving in One heart, mind and spirit to fulfil the Great commission! To see strong caregroup in every course in the campus and institution. To see NS men making impact in military ground, building strong spiritual Christ ambassadors.

Training current and next generation:

Acquire knowledge.
Broaden their perspective.
Cultivate convictions.
Develop skills.
Establish character.

After staying in the camp christine, I truly appreciate nexus even more as I entered. It's cooling, conducive and well equipped. That reminds me of fulfilling my building pledge.

I enjoyed the part where we had 20min outreach challenge after the faith teaching by Jasmine. All of us were so excited! I paired up with Nehemiah and rushed to S11 and centrepoint for invitation to our Pre-easter svc. As we were running towards the Mac, we saw 3 girls about to go toilet and 1 of the girls actually decided to wait for their friends. We quickly grab hold of the girl and start introducing ourselves and her friends who were about to enter the toilet saw us. They were curious about our approach and we got them to join us in the conversation. After introduction and sharing, we realised that they were from different schools- 1 from nyp and 2 from ITE dover and Bishan! We chatted for a while and found out that one of them had been to church and read bible too but yet a Christian. We exchanged contact numbers and went on with our invitation. we manage to have 5 contacts within 20mins challenge! Behind the numbers are the people who yet heard of gospel, thus sowing is the immediate action to be taken.

RP: We are small but we will never remain small! Charged!

NYP: Witness X3 growth!

Farewell to NYP Grads

2007-03-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

Farewell to NYP Grads

Dear Grads (Jiahuey, Matthew, Deborah, Ken, Xing Xing, Yuanwen, Lester, Kelvin, Hannah, Joey, Cady, Donovan, Eilton and Job)

Really appreciate all of you in building NYP ministry strong and vibrant. It's indeed a great time spent with all of you throughout these years of serving God together. We witnessed one another's growth, helping one another when we are facing trials and temptation, encouraging one another to grow in our faith in the Lord. Another new life chapter has just begun and I believe that it's going to be filled with great excitement and purpose. God is going to reveal more of his plan and purpose to you as you continue to walk faithfully and courageously. May God lavish abundant blessings and annointing unto all of you as you take courage to venture into new land. Be a trailblazer for Jesus, having the desire to plant a church in your lifetime.Truely treasure the friendship and covenant we have with one another. Thanks for making an impact in my life too.

Love and treasure you lots. Miss You.

Leanne

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Farewell to NYP Grads
Time flies... after being with some of the grads for 1-3 years... it's time to say goodbye to them.. however that's not the end. Another new life chapter has began.. some of them are going to Adult congregation, while some are moving on to tertiary Ns group and Hope Kids Adult CG.

A heartfelt thanks to the grads for making NYP family complete... setting a strong foundation in NYP. Thanks for going through thick and thin with us, witnessing the growth of NYP together. I believe NYP will go from strength to strength.

Last Thursday, I had the last dinner with all the grads. We had a great time of sharing together. Listening and answering their concerns about moving on, and what to expect when serving in a new group. what and how to prepare for their new life stages.

To grads: when we reach 100 we will have alumni dinner and invite all of you(NYP grads) to join in for this celebration ok!

On Friday, we had our farewell for the grads.. we had a great time of fellowship. It was filled with love and warmth.

Serenity. Courage. Wisdom. --- Lord I Need You.

2007-03-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

Serenity. Courage. Wisdom. --- Lord I Need You.

As I was chatting with shuling from nyp, she msned me this prayer:

" GOD grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change; the COURAGE to change the things I can; and the WISDOM to know the difference."

Thanks sis!

I felt loved greatly from my surrounding friends in the spiritual family-- church. It's a place where I found acceptance, love and care. It's a place where I grow and develop. It's a place for refuge. It's a place where true friends are found. Showered me with prayer and encouragement, hugs and listening ears.

I believe that everything is within God's control. I just need to give my utmost best, He will handle the rest.

I have this Hope as an anchor for soul, firm and secure...

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I came across this Hope Kids Blog : http://www.hopesingapore.org.sg/hkinteractive/seelearn.htm

View it.. its interesting! Especially about: IS GOD REAL? - Scientist Albert Einstein answers

Thanking God through difficult times

2007-03-08T13:28:00.000+08:00

Thanking God through difficult times

Read this article from Rick Warren:

Some of you have had a tough year. You've endured your share of criticism. Maybe you've lost a job. Maybe you're going through a rough patch in your marriage.

Now comes Thanksgiving. Can we thank God even when times are tough? Yes, we can.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 says, "Give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (GNB) This verse does not say give thanks for everything. It says give thanks for every circumstance. I see it misinterpreted all the time.

You don't have to give thanks for evil in the world. If my children were murdered, I would not be thankful. If my wife was sick, I would not be thankful. The Bible does not say be thankful for evil. But in every circumstance, no matter how bad it is, you can give thanks to God because ...

- His purpose is bigger than my problem.
- He will give me the power to overcome my problem.
- I know I will grow through the experience if I allow God to help me grow.

I may not be thankful for evil, but I can be thankful despite evil.
How can you be grateful when you've lost your job, your health, or a spouse? You look not at what you've lost – but what you have. And you have an awful lot left.

You're alive for one thing!

So the question is: What are you taking for granted? Your health? Your freedom? Your relationships? There used to be an old song, "Count Your Blessings, Name Them One By One." We need to do that. We need to make lists of what we are thankful for – our families, friends, our ministries, whatever we are thankful for. When times are tough, that's when you need to be reminded of everything God has given you.

Becoming a truly grateful person can be the healthiest change you make in your life all year long – better than any diet or exercise plan you start on. Love isn't the healthiest emotion out there – gratitude is. When you are thankful despite your circumstances, you're more resistant to illness and stress.

Besides, you can't find God's will for your life when you're ungrateful. Read 1 Thessalonians 5:18 again. "Give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will." If you're not living a grateful life – despite your circumstances – you're out of God's will. It's that simple.

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Life doesn't seems to be smooth these few months, facing all sorts of difficulties.. last night a brother from RP asked me how many problems will I face per day? I couldn't count, I just know that God knows it well.. my attitude and character was greatly moulded... realise that sometimes I really take things for granted... it's only when I am about to lose it then I start to regret..

It has been 25 years of marriage but 8 years without communicating though living under the same roof.. and now going to come to an end soon.. witnessing my parents going through rough patch in their marriage and now going to put an end.. emotions welled up within.. I always thought there would be a way out.. however seems like I have to accept the fact and adjust my life.. and the role I play at home.. I start to miss the person who has always been protecting us and being a cheerleader in our life.. I start to miss the person who make effort to provide for our needs.. It is time to adjust my expectation too...

I realised something change within my heart through such circumstances, I start to be more expressive in showing my love and concern to my siblings more. Our relationship had also improved greatly. I wonder is it too late.. its only when I realise that I am about to lose one family member from the picture.. certain thoughts just straightened out..

I know that everything is still within God's control.. without Him, I really think that I would have taken alternative path.. It is him who gives me hope and peace.. It is Him who gives me the strength and comfort.. I thank God that He provides me spiritual family and friends too.. that I could open up and share my life.

The Seed planted in my heart

2007-03-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

The "seed" planted in my heart

As I woke up in the morning, the first thing I did was to give thanks to God. I really feel loved Him. He had placed people around me to comfort and guide me. His presence is always with me. Every thought and heartbeat that went through me.. he knows it well..

Uncertainty, hurt, anger and worry just overwhelmed me so easily.. However when I started to ask God to change my heart attitude.. There's peace within... not that I deceived myself.. I just know that I have a great heavenly father who is protecting me, hearing my prayer and cry... I am not alone.. He is with me.. He provided me not just a natural family but also a spiritual family and friends.

Vision wasn't shaken nor compromised.. just that I need clearer guidance.. need clearer direction.. need a stronger heart... courageous mind.. and faith-filled heart.

As I was planning for the mission, "the seed planted in my heart" -- seed of mission.. flashed in my mind. Then I thought of a verse:

John 12:24 ~ "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. "

This seed has to die to itself then it will produce many.. This seed can be left alone without any care.. but then it wouldn't grow.. this seed need to die to itself and be nurtured... I prayed to God to nurture this seed that is planted in my heart.. i need to die to myself, submit to the caretaker.. and allow him to nurture me and prune me whenever needed.

This seed that dies to itself then will it grow, multiply and produce many.

Hm.. wonderful thoughts of the day.. ok continue my planning.

Making Choices on Sensitive Issues

2007-03-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

Making Choices on Sensitive Issues

All of us make hundreds of choices every day. Most choices have no right or wrong attached to them--- like what you wear or what you eat. But we always face decisions that carry a little more weight. We don't want to do wrong, and we don't want to cause others to do wrong, so how can we make such decision?

Little thoughts from 2 Corinthians

If I choose one course of action:

... does it help my witness for Christ? (9:19-22)
... am I motivated by a desire to help others know Christ? (9:23, 10:33)
... does it help me to do my best? (9:25)
... is it against a specific command in Scripture and would thus cause me to sin? (10:12)
... is it the best and most beneficial course of action? (10:23, 33)
... am I thinking only of myself, or do I truly care about the other person? (10:24)
... am I acting lovingly or selfishly? (10:28-31)
... does it glorify God? (10:31)
... will it cause someone else to sin? (10:32)

Lunar New Year Celebration Part II

2007-02-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

Lunar New Year Celebration Part II

年初三--- Went to Jasmine's house to 拜年, together with some of the uni ldrs. Jasmine treated us with KFC and Sushi. She also offered us Ice Wine! Cool! Then after that i went to Andrew's house the nyp dmm.. His mum prepared for us dinner!! Love her fried bee hoon! We played some card games and end up most of the time Matthew will have lots of food to clear.. We also rented DVD from PLAY! We watched "Devil wears Prada"--- indeed its a good movie!! We really enjoy the show! The night was still young.. went to Kbox and sing til 2am.. oh... I really need to brush up my songs reservoir-- good to know more new songs and improve my chinese. most of the words i wouldnt figure out at all cos of their 繁体字.

年初四--- went to Sharon's place for steamboat with the rp. We really had a great time! Enjoyed the 捞鱼生. I love it!

捞鱼生 "Lau Yu Sheng" @ Sharon's place

Lau Lau Lau!!!!

Lunar New Year Celebration Part I

2007-02-21T12:44:00.000+08:00

Lunar New Year Celebration Part I

Had been busy with spring cleaning all these while and finally finished on the new year eve! Had a great reunion dinner with my family.. Although parents' relationship wasn't on good term for many years, but making an effort to have reunion dinner once a year was something that warmed my heart.

This new year was rather different for me as I get to be more initiative in catching up with my aunties and cousins. When I was young, I only played with the kids around and seldom get to talk to my relatives. However this round of visitations, I chatted with aunties and uncles about jobs, property, children development, health, marriage etc... also initiated to exchange contact numbers and also took down their addresses.. promise to visit them when I'm free... My approach to my grandparents also changed.. more than just called them and hoping to get ang bao.. but spend some time massage and hugged them. Also a time to exercise a bit of my dialects...

Well.. as usual... as you grow older, there will be certain things you wont missed when you meet relatives.

" Are you attached? When will I get to attend your wedding?..."

And this doesn't come from adults only.. even siblings, cousins, kids also started to question...

And I will give my trademark smile to them.

This new year is also a great time for me to fellowship with some friends... went to jasmine's and Andrew's house yesterday. Looking forward to go to Sharon's place tomorrow for RP reunion lunch!

Alright now it's time to get back to books again! Preparing for my mock papers! Camp coming! excited!! Also time to shed off new year fats after indulging in all the goodies!

Letting Go of Emotional Wounds

2007-02-20T09:24:00.000+08:00

Just read an article..

Letting Go of Emotional Wounds
By Joel Osteen

We live in a society that loves to make excuses, and one of our favorite phrases is: “It’s not my fault.”
“Joel, I’m a negative person because I was raised in an unhealthy family environment,” one man told me.
“My husband walked out on me. I’ve been rejected. That’s why I’m always so depressed,” said a woman in her early forties.
“I’ve lost my wife, and I just don’t understand it. That’s why I’m so angry, said another young man.

No, the truth is, if we are bitter and resentful, it’s because we are allowing ourselves to remain that way. We’ve all had negative things happen to us. If you look hard enough, you can easily find reasons to have a chip on your shoulder. Anyone can make excuses and blame the past for his or her bad attitudes, poor choices, or hot temper.
You may have valid reasons for feeling the way you do. You may have gone through things that nobody deserves to experience in life. Perhaps you were physically, verbally, sexually, or emotionally abused. Maybe you’ve struggled to deal with a chronic illness or some other irreparable physical problem. Perhaps somebody took advantage of you in business and you lost your shirt, as well as your self-esteem. I don’t mean to minimize those sad experiences, but if you want to live in victory, you cannot use past emotional wounds as an excuse for making poor choices today. You dare not use your past as an excuse for your current bad attitude, or as a rationalization for your unwillingness to forgive somebody. The fourth step toward living your best life now is to let go of the past.
It’s time to allow emotional wounds to heal, to let go of your excuses and stop feeling sorry for yourself. It’s time to get rid of your victim mentality.

Nobody—not even God—ever promised that life would he fair. Quit comparing your life to somebody else’s, and quit dwelling on what could have been, should have been, or might have been. Quit asking questions such as, “Why this?” or “Why that?” or “Why me?”

Instead, take what God has given you and make the most of it. You may have suffered much, endured great hardships, or been through a lot of negative things. You may have deep scars from emotional wounds, but don’t let your past determine your future. You can’t do anything about what’s happened to you, but you can choose how you will face what’s in front of you. Don’t hold on to feelings of bitterness and resentment and let them poison your future. Let go of those hurts and pains. Forgive the people who did you wrong. Forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made.

You may even need to forgive God. Perhaps you’ve been blaming Him for taking one of your loved ones. Maybe you are angry at God because He didn’t answer your prayers, or some situation didn’t work out the way you had hoped. Regardless, you will never be truly happy as long as you harbor bitterness in your heart. You will wallow in self-pity, always feeling sorry for yourself, thinking that life hasn’t dealt you a fair hand. You must let go of those negative attitudes and the accompanying anger. Change the channel and start focusing on the goodness of God.

CHANGE THE CHANNEL
We all know how to use the remote control to change the channels on the TV. If we see something we don’t like, no big deal—we just flip channels. We need to learn how to mentally change channels when negative images of the past pop up in our minds unexpectedly. Unfortunately, when some people see those negative experiences on their minds’ “screens,” instead of quickly changing channels, they pull up a chair and get some popcorn, as though they’re going to watch a good movie. They willingly allow themselves to relive all those hurts and pains. Then they wonder why they are depressed, upset, or discouraged.

Learn to change the channel. Don’t let your mind or your emotions drag you down into despair. Instead, dwell on the good things God has done in your life.

You probably know some people who thrive on self-pity. They relish the attention that it brings them. They’ve lived that way for so long, self-pity has become part of their identity. He or she is known as the person that went through some great struggle, some horrible experience, the person who had something really awful happen to him or her. Certainly, when someone undergoes a traumatic experience, that person should be treated with compassion and care for as long as it takes to regain health and strength and get back on his feet. But the truth is, some people don’t really want to get well. They like the attention too much.

If you’ve had something painful happen to you, don’t let that experience be the focal point of your life. Stop talking about it; stop bringing it up to your friends. You must get beyond it. Unless you let go of the old, God will not bring the new, it is natural to feel sorrow and to grieve, but you shouldn’t still be grieving five or ten years later. If you really want to be whole, if you really want to get well, you need to move on with your life.
Too often we keep reliving the painful memories of the past, negating God’s desire to bring healing. Just as we are about to heal, we start talking about our painful experience again. We bring it up to our friends. We start reliving it, seeing it in our imagination. All of a sudden, we can feel those same emotions all over again, as though we were tearing open the old wound. It will never properly heal until we learn to leave it alone. Remember, your emotions follow your thoughts. When you dwell on painful experiences in your past, your emotions go right back there with you, and you feel the pain in the present. You can relive something in your mind and feel it today just as vividly as when it happened twenty years ago.

You must do something similar regarding the painful experiences from your past. Refuse to go back there emotionally; refuse to dredge up negative emotional memories. They will do you no good; in fact, strongly felt negative emotions can hold the potential to severely stifle your progress.

Think of it like this: Every person has two main files in his or her memory system. The first is a file filled with all the good things that have happened to us. It’s full of our victories and accomplishments, all of the things that have brought us joy and happiness through the years.

The second file is just the opposite. It’s filled with the hurts and pains of the past, all of the negative things that have happened to us. It’s full of our defeats and failures, things that brought us sadness and sorrow. Throughout life, we can choose which file we will access. Some people repeatedly return to file number two and relive the painful things that have happened to them. They’re always thinking about the times somebody did them wrong, the times they were hurt or suffered awful pain. They practically wear out file number two. They’re so preoccupied with the negative things, they never get around to exploring file number one. They hardly think about the good things that have happened to them.

If you want to be free, if you want to overcome self-pity, throw away the key to file number two. Don’t go back there anymore. Keep your mind focused on the good things God has done in your life.

DON’T GO THERE
An old joke says, “If you break your arm in three places, don’t go to those places anymore.” There may be more truth in that corny line than we realize. When the pains of the past beckon your attention, don’t go back there. Instead, remind yourself, No thanks, I’m going to think on things that are of good report, things that are going to build me up, not tear me down, things that encourage me and fill me with peace and happiness, not things that attempt to steal my hope and drain my spirit.

Get Up and Get Moving

In the Bible, we read about a man in Jerusalem who had been crippled for thirty-eight years. He spent every day of his life lying on a mat by the pool of Bethesda, hoping for a miracle. This man had a deep-seated, lingering disorder.

I think many people today have lingering disorders. Their maladies may not be physical; they may be emotional, but they are deep-seated. lingering disorders nonetheless. They could stem from being unwilling to forgive, holding on to past resentments, blaming the past for their behavior, or other emotional wounds. These lingering disorders can affect your personality, your relationships, and your self-image, just as the man lying by the pool, some people sit back year after year, waiting for a miracle to happen, waiting for some big event to come along to make everything better.

One day Jesus saw the man lying there in need. It was obvious that he was crippled, but Jesus asked the man what seemed a strange question: “Do you want to be made well?”’

I believe God is asking a similar question of us today: “Do you want to be well or do you want to continue lying around feeling sorry for yourself?”

Jesus asked a simple, straightforward question, but the man’s response was interesting. He began listing all of his excuses. “I’m all alone. I don’t have anyone to help me. Other people have let me down. Other people always seem to get ahead of me. I don’t have a chance in life.”

Is it any wonder that he remained in that condition for thirty eight years
I love the way Jesus answered him. He didn’t even respond to his sad story. He didn’t say, “Yes, friend, I agree with you. You’ve had a tough time. Let Me commiserate with you.”

No, Jesus looked at him and said, in effect, “If you are serious about getting well, if you are serious about getting your life in order, if you really want to get out of this mess, here’s what you must do: Get up off the ground, take up your bed, and be on your way.” When the man did what Jesus told him to do, he was miraculously healed!
That’s a message for us today. If you’re serious about being well, if you really want to be made physically and emotionally whole, you must get up and get moving with your life. No more lying around feeling sorry for yourself. You must stop going back to file number two all the time. Stop making excuses; stop blaming people or circumstances that disappointed you. Instead, start forgiving the people that hurt you.

Today can be a turning point in your life, a time of new beginnings. Don’t waste another minute trying to figure out why certain evil things have happened to you or your loved ones. Refuse to live with a victim mentality any longer.

You might be saying, “I just don’t understand why this is happening to me. I don’t understand why I got sick. Why did my loved one die? Why did my marriage break apart? Why was I raised in such an abusive environment?”
You may never know the answer. But don’t use that as an excuse to wallow in self-pity. Leave it alone, get up, and move on with your life. Many of the “why” questions of life will remain a conundrum, but trust in God, and accept the fact that there will be some unanswered questions. Keep in mind, just because you don’t know the answer doesn’t mean that one does not exist. You simply haven’t discovered it yet.

Usually, we can deal with a situation if we can locate a file in our thinking in which to put it. “He got into trouble because he was running with the wrong crowd…”
But what happens when things don’t make sense? When a good person is stricken with a serious illness? Or a child is born with a birth injury? Or a husband or wife walks out of a marriage? What happens when life doesn’t fit neatly into our categories?

Each of us should have what I call an “I Don’t Understand It” file. When something comes up for which you have no reasonable answer, instead of dwelling on it and trying to figure it out, simply place it in your I Don’t Understand It file.

In the meantime, you must muster enough faith to say, “God, I don’t understand it, but I trust You. And I’m not going to spend all my time trying to figure out why certain things have happened. I’m going to trust You to make something good out of it. You’re a good God, and I know You have my best interests at heart. You promised that all things will work together for my good.”

That is faith, and that is the attitude God honors.

You must do what God is leading you to do. The point I want you to see is that sometimes we go through things we just don’t understand. Through it all, we must learn to keep a good attitude and trust that God is still in control of our lives, even when events are not going the way we had planned or hoped.

In the Bible we find an interesting account of when King David’s baby was dreadfully sick, near death. David was extremely distraught; he prayed night and day, believing that God could heal his child. He wouldn’t eat or drink; he didn’t shave or shower. He didn’t attend to any business. He wouldn’t do anything but pray, crying out to God.
Despite David’s passionate prayers, on the seventh day the child died. David’s servants worried how they were going to tell the king that his baby was dead. They thought he would be so devastated, so distraught that he couldn’t handle it. But when David finally figured out what had happened, he surprised them all. He got up off the floor. He washed his face and put on some fresh clothes. Then he asked his servants to bring him some food, and he sat down and ate a meal.

His servants were flabbergasted. They said, “David, when your child was alive, you fasted and prayed. But now that he’s gone, you act as though nothing’s wrong.

David answered, “Yes, I fasted and prayed when my son was sick, thinking that God might heal him. But now that he is gone, I cannot bring him back. He will not return to me, but I will go to be with him.” Notice David’s attitude. He didn’t get bitter. He didn’t question God. He could have snarled, “God, I thought You loved me. Why didn’t You answer my prayers.

David didn’t do that. He dared to trust God in the midst of his disappointment. He washed his face and moved on with his life.

Friend, you and I have to learn to do the same thing. People may have mistreated you. Somebody may have walked out on you, or maybe you prayed fervently, yet God didn’t answer your prayer the way you had anticipated. That’s over and done. You cannot change the past; there’s nothing you can do about it now. But you must make a decision. Are you going to sit around by the pool for thirty eight years, or are you going to get up and get moving with your life? Are you going to keep going back to file number two, reliving all those painful memories, or are you going to stay in an attitude of faith? God is asking, “Do you really want to get well?”

If you do, you must walk out of any emotional bondage in which you have been living. Nobody can do it for you. You must rise up out of those ashes. You must forgive the people who have hurt you. You have to release all those hurts and pains. Leave the past behind. When you go through situations you don’t understand, don’t become bitter. Don’t question God. Learn to do as David did: just wash your face, keep a good attitude, and move on. Get ready for the new things God has in store for you.

If you will stay in an attitude of faith and victory, God has promised that He will turn those emotional wounds around. He’ll use them to your advantage, and you will come out better than you would have had they not happened to you.

Seed--- Growth--- Reproduce--- Multiply

2007-02-13T15:16:00.001+08:00

Lord of Creation--- return of the King in my life

Oh... long time haven been blogging!

Still remember I was struggling in deciding to go Leadership Conference (LC).. feeling negative, burdened and stretched initially.. however during the LC, I was greatly encouraged and charged up and God dropped me a clear vision when I came back that afternoon.

It was a great exposure learning for me as I got to know pastors and leaders from various Hope churches, not forgetting the great spread of buffet for every meal, warm fellowship and direct impartation by Ps PN and Ps Simon Eng and the preaching by Ps Wilson (oversee Hope Oceania contingent like Australia and New Zealand) and Ps Arlene (Hope Hong Kong).

Agree with what Ps Jeff had shared regard during the Valentine's Service Part 2-- Fatal Attraction.. about getting relationship with God right by growing steadily with God and also knowing our place in the Kingdom of God-- Life Mission.

Ps Jeff also quoted from Andy Stanley's saying " The clearer the vision, the lesser the option, the easier the decision we make in our life."

hm... option? is there any? no worry.. rest assured. Ps 37:4

Cheers!

Stretch... To the Max. Not the same life again

2007-02-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

Stretch... To the Max. Not the same life again

Stretch... fully stretched.. This time round it is a wake up call for me to be more disciplined with the time I have. I can't pray to have more than 24hrs, but I pray that I can maximise the hours given. Brain just cant rest.. days and nights.. many things uploaded on my mind.

Life will never be the same again when you realise about certain truth and His purpose. I read something from Rick Warren's teaching:

(You didn't create you, so you can't tell yourself what you were created for. Does that make sense? God says, " I made you and I'm the one who can tell you what yur purpose is." If I were to hold up an invention that you'd never seen before and said," Tell me the purpose of this invention." you wouldn't know what the purpose of it is. Unless you talked to the inventor/creator or read the owner's manual. ........

......Life is preparation for eternity. That explains life. It is a warm up act before the real play begins. It's a dress rehearsal before the real show starts. The initial warm up lap around the race before the real race begins. We are going to spend more on that side of eternity than we do on this side. ........)

As I was reading this, I felt a stretch in my understanding about life.. Though life here is short and stated as rehearsal here to prepare for real play... I deemed this rehearsal as very important.. the way I do thing, the heart attitude I carry.. there are many times I failed badly.. yet 2nd chance was given when a decision was made to repent and move on.. God cares about our being rather than doing... He cares the attitude we carry when handling certain matters.

He wants to build qualities in our life-- Gal 5:22. He want us to grow spiritually and become more like Jesus. He teaches us these qualities by putting us in the exact opposite situation.

Yearning for spiritual depth. spiritual breakthrough. Grow up. Deeper Life. for the next 4 months.

完美的一天

2007-01-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

完美的一天 Beautiful Days

23 Jan
Surprises loads of surprises!! Birthday celebration started since last sat. We had our NYP Jan babies birthday celebration. The prayer meet turn out to be surprises for the Jan babies!

Recently I had a nightmare... this dream just dwelled in my heart with fear and uncertainty.. and 2 days later I just received bad news . I couldnt stop crying when I meet yuhui for shepherding. I tried to control my tears and calmed down. Had a great catch up with her for supper and also a walk in the park. The moment I reached home I just discussed with my younger brother about the matter. We planned what to do.. sound like investigators.. hee... I'm glad that my relationship with my brother has improved. We are able to discuss family matters together.

I thought that this would be a hard-going birthday that I'm going to spend. That night after talking to my brother I just cant stop crying.. feel burden for my family.. sometimes realised that problems really force me to grow.. to rely on God more.. spent some time praying for my family.

24 Jan
Had a wonderful celebration with the RP ppl. We went to that Indian restaurant @ Chinatown pt again. Just something for those who are going to take note: Do call for reservation, pls dress appropriately. It's a fine dining place. When we reached there, there is a man who actually give us a gentle lecture on this matter. Indeed its a great lesson to note. After the dinner, we went to the speakers' corner to play polar game. Indeed I was being sabo with all surprises ... they sprayed the ribbon foam all over my body. Can't help but to let them experience my SCREAMMMMM... I was very touched as this celebration is not only for me but also my beloved rp friend- mickey Joshua bday on 23 Jan--- get to know him on my first day outreach in rp classroom! Thanks to Rp for all the surprises and gifts. No forgetting Sharon--- wrote bday message in Chinese and baked cake for me 很感动!and also Nehemiah who took my pic with SLR camera and framed it up.. Thanks to the rest too for your gifts and cards!很感动!

May our friendship be strengthened as we walk together in the Lord.

25Jan

As I reached home..thinking that all these surprises were enough for me.. just as the clock strike 12 I had another surprise! My hp msges just kept rolling in.. til now.. thanks friends!!

This morning, my mum smsed me to wish me Happy Birthday.. 很感动！She blessed me with $ while I was asleep. While dad gave me ang bao when I woke up.

Thanks to nyp dmm.. They intend to celebrate my bday today, however I want to meet my mum for dinner. So instead of feasting, they had fasting for my family. Thanks for being so understanding and supportive! :) 很感动！

Thanks for the loads of surprises! I'm truly touched and grateful for all you've done. :)

Birthday wish: Enhance personal life and enrich spiritual journey. Family unity and salvation. RP NYP revive and soar under His wings.

Lady in Waiting

2007-01-23T11:00:00.000+08:00

Lady in Waiting

Recently I just finished reading this book, " Lady in Waiting" written by Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones. Thanks to Jasmine for lending me this book! This book does not emphasize on a woman's status (single, married, divorced or widowed), but on the state of a woman's heart. It helps to direct a woman's attention toward the One who really understands the longing of her heart.

This book is not about finding the right man, but being the right woman. It focuses on the 10 qualities of a godly woman that are found in Book of Ruth. As I read I see these characteristics beautifully displayed in the life of Ruth, She recklessly abandons herself to the Lordship of Christ, diligently uses her single days, trusts God with unwavering faith, demonstrates virtue in daily life, loves God with undistracted devotions, stands for physical and emotional purity, lives in security, responds to life with contentment, make choices based on her convictions, and wait patiently for God to meet her needs.

I guess when you reach certain age your biological clock will start clicking. ha.. It's natural. However I would like to partner with God to go through this journey in enhancing personal life and enriching spiritual journey!

Divine Exchange----Joy-filled heart----- RP----- Revival Pioneers

2007-01-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

Divine Exchange----Joy-filled heart----- RP----- Revival Pioneers

Had a long day today.. after lesson in morning then went to RP for shepherding. Met up with Sharon, we had a very great time spent though wasn't long and with some distractions here and there. It was the first time we actually can talk for so long.. hee.. I felt at eased. Glad to be able to serve God with her. Sharon has the heart for people.. she knows her people well and had burden to want to do something in RP. Shared to her my personal learning too, things that I faced, struggled and overcame. It was a time that I could feel unguarded to share. I thank God that none of us are serving alone.. in fact we have a place where we can learn and grow.. love and encourage.. look forward to see RP become a land filled with pioneers of future generation!

Immediately after meeting Sharon, it was time to catch up with Alvin. Realised that RP Food Haven really close early... we decided to go Causeway Point Banquet.. however along the way we decided to go to an Indian restaurant at Chinatown point. Well I need to start adjusting my diet to have some Indian food.. prepare myself for the Nepal exploration trip in June! I can't be just eating fast food and instant noodles.. so I need to start adjust my diet and also learn some Nepali language!

This journey is one of the longest journey I ever took. We waited Bus 961 at Woodlands bus station for nearly half hr and the bus journey was super long.. we took around 1.5 hrs to reach! It's so long til when we alighted with a hard time straightening our knee and walked.

By the way, in that Indian restaurant, you can try all soft of Indian cuisine without any price attached to it. You can pay any amount you wish to. It's a great place for shepherding and holding meetings! However there is one thing to take note .. it is an Indian vegetarian restaurant. So meat-eater... you may have to adjust your taste bud! Hey try the Dosai.. its nice! and also their special Indian fried rice and indian curry!

When we reached there we saw a group of tertiary Hope people filled with joy and excitement... they were the SIM SMU people!! hahhaha... wah.. Hope people can be seen in any place where there's good food and lobang.

Great food, great heart to heart talk with Alvin.. I realise some changes is taking place within my heart as I was listening and sharing.. we didn't went home after or dinner, in fact we went to a nearby coffee shop to have our 2nd round of catch up with one another.. realise that there are many challenges and many new things for me to learn and explore. deep in my heart was filled with peace and assurance that I wasn't listening alone.. God is present and He is hearing us.

When I was going home.. I decided to take a walk from Kovan Mrt which is around 5 bus stops away from my house. As I walked I can't help but to pray and worship God.. there's joy and peace within me. I wasn't feeling overwhelmed by the challenges.. I know that God is still the ultimate shepherd who is overseeing us. My burden increased with joy and peace.. it's a very different feeling and sense of conviction that I had as compared to days and weeks ago. RP may be small..but RP will never remain small. RP-- Revival Pioneers ---- We are going to see revival in this land!